i think i have heavy seasonal depression cuz around every october/november ever since i could remember like when i was 5 years old i get this pit in my stomach for MONTHS when i have to go outside or when assignments are due or smt. once its march i turn into someone else i swear
im so dependabt i hate it like technically i can live perfectly fine on my own if it werent for the fact id get extremely depressed if id never see my friends
i love being very ill and waking up at 4.30 am and bawling my eyes out for 2 hours the. going to the balcony and very cold air hits you it smells so childhood like. i feel like a child.