rosa 🐞

they/them || this is my mentally ill diary. don’t pay any mind. i can always talk if u want too

[rosa 🐞 @nymtea]

this account is so that i can be mentally ill and horny! truly. what a combination…

[rosa 🐞 @nymtea]

i’m back baby

[rosa 🐞 @nymtea]

i lowkey can’t stand my roommate !!!

[rosa 🐞 @nymtea]

a positive mind i believe. ill be okay. this is not meant to be something to focus on so entirely. you can always go to a psychiatrist. help will always be available. it’s just difficult. make sure to eat, sleep, and drink water because those things mean more than you could know!

[rosa 🐞 @nymtea]

finished my call with my therapist. i’m feeling a bit better. i just have to tell myself that i can get through this and do actions that will engage me and get my mind off of things. i will be okay i know it because if i can be normal before then i can be normal again.

[rosa 🐞 @nymtea]

but i will be fine. i honestly and genuinely believe it and so will everyone else, though it may take time. and you have to accept that it will take time. which suckssss and i hate it. but at long as you try you can’t say you didn’t do it. positive mindset typically resulting in

[rosa 🐞 @nymtea]

um…. feeling slightly better! kinda. can’t wait for my therapy appt!

[rosa 🐞 @nymtea]

not have to be my reality. sorry i just like to remind myself and assure myself that it’s gonna be okay .,.

[rosa 🐞 @nymtea]

i will be fine. i know this. it’s just so scary. and i csnt imagine anyone else going through this as well. it makes me upset that people go through this . im going to be taking steps to get better again. i will be okay. if i can be normal before i can be normal again. this does

[rosa 🐞 @nymtea]

i just hate feeling like this so bad… but recently i’ve been doing really well. it’s just a setback at the moment. i’m going to talk to my therapist about this tomorrow (i will be mentioning the fact that i’m struggling with dpdr for the first time)

[rosa 🐞 @nymtea]

and read about other peoples issues with DPDR and anxiety which only fuels me to extreme levels and it makes it so much worse for me that i’d rather like. die or something. i know i can recover but still…. some of these symptoms are so scary and i hate it so much.

[rosa 🐞 @nymtea]

me when i get mad at my fucking roommate again for just being like, hey how’s ur dpdr? like?? are we even close enough to be talking about this? not to mention thanks for bringing it up again so now i’m freaking the fuck out about it agajn

[rosa 🐞 @nymtea]

that he’s entitled to ask about it. maybe there’s
nothing wrong with him doing this. i think i just hold a LOT against him (and for most of it!! good reason too). i just want to be normal again and now i feel like my progress has been totally reset. i go online