qOakley 💚

Living in a silly lil daydream • EDTWT • Public Diary/Vent acc • I pretty much just lurk these days

[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

are you watching me?

[hera @shiningdaisies]

unfortunately i could never be nonchalant because i am not well in the head and also my soul is on fire

[🇪🇬🇲🇦James Potter of edrtwt @frayah_isdead]

i have the opposite of body dysphoria

[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

I miss when my mom was still my mommy

[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

My boyfriend’s mom has hugged me more in a month than my mom has in the past five years.

[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

Unfortunately for me everything tastes better than skinny feels #theworstbulimic

[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

i’m sick of trying to look at fatspo and yall put the baddest bitches in there. i’m trying to convince myself to get skinny not learn how to dress.

[mari ༉‧₊˚. @yuna_yuukyu]

When I was younger, after an argument with my parents I used to fantasise about killing myself so they’d regret yelling at me.

[𝑒𝓵𝓵ie @bunniedwll]

the fact im not even ugly im just fat🥹

[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

I want to change but that’s the problem. I want it. Just want. I refuse to do it. I cry every single day about how I wish I were different but every door that opens I close.

[lily loves enha @hachikeus]

u know ur acc is dead when these r ur notifs

[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

any moots active here? i think my frontal lobe developed and i ditched this

[Kaguya’s Top Gal @hayasaka_aryan]

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[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

i quit vaping and got violently sick.

[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

I’m back to counting calories. I’m only six days into a diet and eating less than my caloric goals. I don’t wanna eat. I don’t wanna spiral cause things are finally going well for me.

[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

@babyyfawn me personally if someone is drinking even one beer EVERY SINGLE DAY that’s a red flag. But after the number hits 4-5 DAILY it’s definitely a problem.

[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

@ilonisstarving walk to work is the dumbest advice, my 20 minute drive would be 4 hour walk.

[tyler woodward @tyler02020202]

telling myself i’m too self aware for therapy as i repeat a pattern of behavior i’ve been trying to break since age 14

[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

@deffoischels I feel like this is very on brand for someone with an ED. Active, Recovery, Relapse.

[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

drink alcohol and take adderall. vape and crochet.

[qOakley 💚 @oaktreelbs]

me after going to therapy every two weeks

[Sean Strickland @SStricklandMMA]

Therapy is such a joke..

You literally have to pay someone that gives no fucks about you to listen to your problems and pretend you matter.

You don't matter. Now be a fucking man, try to bury your demons. Smile in the face of misery and make a woman or child happy

Goodluck