there's been like a dead spider in our kitchen that nobody else has cleaned up for like ages and now i understand why it's there.... i hope she gets all of my anger and annoyance and frustration tenfold
i still got triggered every once in a while but this time it's actually so bad like height of covid losing my mind obsessing over numbers kind of bad i cant even do what i used to do for weight loss because i already gave myself a heart condition
for the past 4 years ive been doing pretty well i wasnt scared of food i didnt care about my measurements at all i was effortlessly maintaining my lowest weight ever while eating whatever i want but everyone losing so much weight all of a sudden is making me spiral im so sad
such a stupid thing to be celebrating but im finally done with bingeing and back to zero appetite full on starvation i dont know if my body could still handle my old habits but i honestly dont care anymore if I get a heart failure at least i'll die skinny :3
everybody at my new job thinks that im very skinny id be walking around the office feeling like im a god but every time i get home and see myself in the mirror i see myself as the complete opposite i dont fucking know anymore