julian

27✨they/them✨vent account / edtwt✨
minors dni
im on here sporadically

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

i only did three bc I started to get really dizzy but tbh I'm okay with it

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

hiked 4.5 miles today and am in theory running 4 miles this evening which is a pretty good day if you ask me

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

@hannibalsviolet ahh thanks that's such a good idea!! I need to get back into my oatmeal era bc I actually haven't had it in so long so I'll def give this a try

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

genuinely does anyone have any tips on restricting while also trying to maintain a high level of activity (and do it well, bc im training for a race)
like idk on the days I restrict heavily there is no way to maintain my training schedule

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

this coastal weather, daily runs and access to a whole foods has me not knowing how to act im a new person

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

also i found a gym in this new town that has a hot tub and sauna on top of a good variety of equipment and I'm gonna get a trail pass this weekend, im so excited, i miss the gym so much

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

going to the beach this evening 🥰

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

i got cherry blossom herbal tea and it is just really giving me a deep sense of "everything will be okay"

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

tried to do omad too close to my run and it made me literally throw up

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

okay bc not too long ago I was fasting on another drive and got in an unexpected traffic jam that added 3 hours to my drive and I nearly fainted in the car and had the worst panic attack I've had in years

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

spent a super long weekend driving across the country and told myself I was gonna fast during the drives but actually fasting and driving for that long is really dangerous soooo decided against it

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

love that running makes me have to shit bc i feel better about needing a break after a few miles

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

actually if i play my cards right it's looking like i may be able to have a very light dinner which is ideal and then this weekend I can easily do omads

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

it's going to be okay I have my long run today it's going to be okay I have my long run today it's going to be okay I have my long run today it's going to be

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

i lied this is really hard and I hate myself and i want to die

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

i think I'm starting to find a good balance between my intake and my running the past few days, I just need to try not to have panic attacks at lunch bc if I skip it i won't be able to run well and I already paid for this race so I have to run

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

can't believe i have to do my long run on a friday night since I'm driving across the country all weekend

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

i literally never get crushes too i just date people and get sick of them quick these days

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

friend i have a crush on but will never act on is going on a date why do i wanna die

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

***i swear

[julian @oatmealpeanut]

i edtwt relearns the same three anatomy and/or nutrition facts every week