kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯

He/him 21
tw
ed/sh/bpd twt
my dms are always open if anyone needs to talk, very dyslexic, minors dni

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

That i wasn't, that just writing and focusing was an issue for me but the materials themselves were not, and she was right, i wasn't stupid, i just needed extra support, i finally got diagnosed in highschool, got to study game design and achieve my dream of studying psychology:3

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

Ran into my primary school teacher, got to tell her im in college and studying psychology. Primary and middle school were difficult for me, I wasn't diagnosed w dyslexia and a few other learning disabilities, I struggled and thought I was stupid, but she always told my mum

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

I always think about moving out and living alone, but the moment I'm home alone I feel horrible, scared, lonely and pathetic. Not like I enjoy being with my family but at least im not alone

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

I hate being home alone, it always just reminds me how incredibly alone I am

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

So close to getting out of 69kg jail!!!

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

I want someone to hold me and tell me everything will be okay, that I'm safe, but i know I wouldn't believe a word they'd say and I'd just feel worse

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

I wish I could be clean, not disgusting and dirty

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

Maybe I should isolate myself again. Why not ruin a 3rd summer for myself?

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

Can't even text anyone without feel like I'm acting desperate and annoying

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

Stupid idiot, no amount of avoidance can save you from getting hurt

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

I know it doesn't mean anything but my stupid brain is getting attached to them. They keep saying they miss me and they call me baby and honey. Ik its just sex and I don't want to be the idiot asking "what are we?" Bc i know what we are, i just wish I wasn't attached

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

How can they find me attractive when I'm lowkey gross, like why would you want this???

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

"I just forget to eat" kys, we both know ur just bragging

[Anii ! @iidiot_anii]

why am i like this

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

I wanna throw up, I've managed to cut off anyone that care about me bc im a scared little bitch

[𝑨𝒓𝒊𝒆𝒍 @skinny_s0ul]

How it feels to live w someone that forces you to eat but at the same time talks about their diet/fasting and comments on your body

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

When he came to me first, when i knew everything that was going on w him, ik I'm the one that fucked it up, i could have kept having that if i didnt freak out and not talk to him for a few months, but fuck i wish it was the same as it used to be between us:/

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

Its so stupid, when he confessed i ghosted him for a few months, and now that he's dating someone I'm jelaus, i want to steal him, if the person was at least good but hes some chud, idk if I even like him romantically and I'd never tell him this but i want him all to myself

[kit ₊˚⊹ 𐂯 @obsessive_pup]

Im so selfish, if we dated i would love to be poly but knowing this fucking chud gets to have him instead of me pisses me off, ik this isnt a hood reason to date someone so i wont even mention it to him, but fuck it makes me so jelaus i liked when i was the closest person to him