human being

@pettankochyan text acc // Just in case you forgot, I’m a human being

[human being @ochantxt]

sometimes i feel like my whole life is a humiliation ritual

[human being @ochantxt]

i've been trying to sleep for 2 hours but the moment i felt a bit sleepy i started thinking about awful things so now i'm unable to sleep..................................... stupid brain

[실눈이 @sillnuunee]

야옹...야오옹..낑..낑낑...끼잉...

[human being @ochantxt]

oh no i dont have clean clothes cbskcnskdn laundry time i guess 🙂 guess the hounds gotta wait lmao

[human being @ochantxt]

Of course people are hounding me again.. I’ll just get it over with already. Might as well do some walking today! I won’t let something like this get me down

[human being @ochantxt]

I might have pushed myself too hard I can’t feel my arms and my legs 😢

[human being @ochantxt]

i feel like just doing my own thing has been helping me lots with my inner struggles and worries. i’m still constantly anxious and afraid of everything but idk. i feel more free. who cares if i’m incompetent i never wanted to be perfect i just wanted to be me

[human being @ochantxt]

Is it even “choice paralysis” when I’m frozen in fear?

[human being @ochantxt]

Why do i even make quotas and goals for going outside every month when I’ve only ever fulfilled it once..? Why do I keep trying when I pussy out every fucking day? I hate myself. I keep hyping myself up to go outside only to be stuck in a choice paralysis

[human being @ochantxt]

I just don’t understand how I feel like I’m dying when I get so anxious. Like I have been feeling like I’m on the verge of vomiting just from my anxiety. It’s actually crippling. I can’t keep living like this

[human being @ochantxt]

nivea creme is good holy shit my dogs are so Awesome rn i recommend nivea creme before sleeping

[human being @ochantxt]

in a yappy sentimental mood ☺️ i hope everyone’s day is good. i think mine for the most part was nice. i also bought some girly stuff like chapstick and idk what it does but nivea creme or something it looked fancy so i got it xd

[human being @ochantxt]

but the girls involved talked so much even i ended up hearing about it 😭 the girl they talked shit about didnt even want them suspended, she just wanted them to get counseling and that just pissed them off even more

[human being @ochantxt]

randomly remembered this but there was this one chick at my school back then and the popular girls at school made a group to talk shit about her. That passed so fast i honestly think that girl is one of the strongest people out there man lol i wouldnt have known about it at all

[human being @ochantxt]

at gatherings if they disrespect me xdd it’s kinda funny the difference between then and now but i bet they’re still talking shit. someday i’ll let it go but the wound is still fresh for me. Genuinely one of the things that made me lose faith in humanity LOL

[human being @ochantxt]

I gotta do paperwork again soon I’m so tired of all that being pushed onto me tbh. But it’s like, if I don’t do it, there will be no equality and mfs are just gonna steal shit. my relatives have gotten a bit wary about pissing me off coz they know they wont see me

[human being @ochantxt]

Strangely enough I missed my family. Even when some kept trying to take money from me again xd I visited my mom too and it was really peaceful- other than the construction sounds nearby lol life is precious

[human being @ochantxt]

neverending pain, quickly ending life

[human being @ochantxt]

I feel so sick and nauseous and everything in between

[human being @ochantxt]

i want to spend more time with my dad i dont know how much time he has left i dont know how i’m going to cope i feel like i’m being drowned everything is so loud

[human being @ochantxt]

cant sleep i cant stop thinking about how much i miss my mom.. i miss my dad too 😔 i miss my grandparents i miss being surrounded by such a lively family even when i was annoyed about it for the most part as a kid even when i didnt understand how shitty everyone was