you still had the fucking nerve to ask how I was doing, to ask why I pulled away and disappeared, when you were already taking the place you had always wanted
you took so much from me, and somehow you still made me feel like none of it ever came from me. things I gave you, things I taught you, things I helped you become. you discredited them, acted like they were always yours, like I was never part of any of it.
you have no place in my life anymore. Not in my present, not in my future, not even in the version of my past that I want to remember. stop acting like you know me better than anyone I'm so disgusted
I hate that I defended you. I hate how many times I convinced myself that things were okay when you didn't even try to understand. I hate that I kept giving you the benefit of the doubt while you were giving me reasons to doubt myself.
I genuinely hate you.
I donβt want an apology, I donβt want closure, and I donβt want you to become a better person for me. I donβt care anymore.
because this relationship hurt me in ways Iβm still trying to recover from. I gave so much of myself to it, and now I have to rebuild parts of me that I lost along the way. I wish I had never had to learn that lesson this way.