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29 | welcome to my personal rant/thought page/diary

[s @ogfireheart]

So burnt out from studying. The self doubt is getting to me. What if I really am just not meant to be a pharmacist. Not because I'm not smart enough but I'm not the right kind of smart. What am I supposed to do if I fail?

[s @ogfireheart]

It sucks that this is my last chance to pass this exam that determines if I get to work as a pharmacist (the thing I went to 8 years of school for after high school and got a doctorate degree in). It sucks that my degree is useless without passing this exam

[s @ogfireheart]

ADHD sucks because I have so many things that should motivate me (the exam costing $500, my entire career riding on me passing, having no alternative plan for my future, being broke, my parents depending on me for the future) but NOTHING can get me to actually focus on studying

[s @ogfireheart]

No matter what there is never enough time to actually study all the material and so much of what you need to know to pass the NAPLEX and be a pharmacist is just memorization and that has always been where I struggled. I'm so much better at comprehending material and applying it

[s @ogfireheart]

I finally have the body to wear all the cute clothes that I want to wear but wouldn't have looked great on me before but I don't have the $$ to buy them nor anywhere to wear them

[s @ogfireheart]

Every year around my birthday, I feel like no one really cares about me. This year, my birthday is just a few days after the biggest exam of my life and I really need the emotional support and reassurance of friends but I have tried with everyone and only 1 kinda showed up for me

[s @ogfireheart]

As I'm studying I've realized that I like learning. I just hate having to remember and retain the information

[s @ogfireheart]

Less than 2 weeks until my exam and my anxiety is peaking and I just want someone to tell me it's going to be okay. Not being able to socialize and go out or even game because I don't have time makes me feel really isolated and alone and doesn't help in relieving this anxiety

[s @ogfireheart]

I miss lettuce and eating salads so much

[Books Behind Borders @MHTruthUltra]

The reason the world is upset with Israel is because of the 700,000+ innocent Palestinians they’ve murdered.

It’s not because they’re Jewish. Hope that helps.

[s @ogfireheart]

Also, House of the Dragon season 3 episode 2 was made for the girls and the gays, iykyk

[s @ogfireheart]

House of the Dragon season 3 is giving us peak television this season. Episode 2 was somehow even better than episode 1 and the acting, specifically Emma D'Arcy's acting was deserving of multiple awards

[Jes @bloodstarvedjax]

I'm so fr you should be burned at the stake for saying this

[s @ogfireheart]

Mowing your lawn at 7:30am on a Saturday morning and waking up your neighbors with the noise should be illegal

[s @ogfireheart]

Worst part about getting older but still not being financially stable is having to miss out on experiences because you still can't afford them but being close to the age where you're not going to be able to do some of those things anymore

[s @ogfireheart]

We Were Liars is such a mediocre show episodes 1-7, but the last episode was such a shock and I cried way more than I would have expected to

[s @ogfireheart]

This summer's fashion trends are giving Winx Club energy and I love it! I just wish someone would be like "here's some money, go on a shopping spree"

[s @ogfireheart]

Paradise is such an underrated show. Finally got around to watching season 2 and I loved season one so much when it came out last year but season 2 definitely tops season 1 and I can't wait for season 3

[s @ogfireheart]

All the actors in Off Campus are sooooo good with acting with their eyes! Men (written by women) in love are top tier yearners

[Elizabeth Warren @SenWarren]

Trump gets:

- $100M arch
- $1B ballroom fund
- A gold coin with his face on it
- A $1.8B slush fund for his MAGA buddies

Meanwhile, he's left Americans with higher grocery bills, higher health care costs, and higher gas prices.