this isn't for sympathy points but rather holding myself accountable. i don't expect forgiveness from old friends and never expect them to reach out to me again and i respect it. i've been hurt then ended up hurting others around me.
( idc if this post is weird/cringe to most. )
the worst pain i still feel today and will continue to not forget is pouring my absolute heart into someone so emotionally unavailable.
i lost myself slowly then all at once that i've become someone i can't recognize anymore.
i lost many friends and people that i've genuinely -
cared about and i have no one else to blame but myself for how sensitive, selfish, cowardice, and overall not too nice of a human i am anymore because of how messed up i got during and after this relationship.
i'm deeply sorry for who i've become and who has/had experienced me.
my sweet baby boy, snipe, has passed away almost an hour ago. i don't think i will be the same without him ever again. i love him dearly and i will always carry him in my heart.
i have no words and i'm super shaky trying to type so excuse if i don't make sense.
i just lost my dog snipe, no one has been able to help us we've lost all hope trying to find help since our only vet is closed and everyone sounds like a broken record and emotionless.
it's so hard to not be angry knowing he could've made it if we got the help we desperately needed. a few people came in to take him much too late so he's really gone this time. my poor baby.
my sweet baby boy, snipe, has passed away almost an hour ago. i don't think i will be the same without him ever again. i love him dearly and i will always carry him in my heart.
i'm so mad i'm fucking upset i don't understand why this had to happen and he's still lying in our house lifeless because we have nowhere else to take him and no one to help us.
he passed away about 30 mins ago and i'm so heartbroken and devastated. i miss him so much already.