then i will take the weight of this prayer down to my grave, let it absorb all of my being that scream you, all the fibre of love that ache for you. i will take the sin of this prayer be with me until this longing deceased and died with me.
this is my last prayer for you.
i hope the guilt eat you alive
and i hope it haunts you in your sleep. i hope it catches you in a random happy day. i hope it looks like a wave. steady. gentle. and crashing. you'll forget everything, but the guilt will stay with you for a lifetime