Oct 10 last year my ex went out for boys night with his friends. Something in me didn’t feel right so I was blowing up his phone the whole night. I was borderline acting crazy now that I think about it.
He kept mizing my calls and this feeling I had wouldn’t go away. I decided to go to where he said he was and see for myself what my gut wanted me to see. I get to Ayoba shisanyama in Sunnyside at 11pn searching for this man
I waited till the club closed but still nothing. I went with a friend and she suggested we go to his house. I get there, there was no one inside. At this point I’m sad and depressed and didn’t know where else to search so we went home.
The disrespect guys 😭 he then drops the call and switches of his phone or his battery dies or whatever. I’m just lying in bed now crying I don’t know what else to do guys. I pray 🥺
I ask God to show me what I need to see cause my heart is heavy 💔
I text this guy on WhatsApp and it’s one tick. I just sit there chilling you know staring at the ceiling and shit. I look at my phone again after a while it’s two ticks. I decide to call him on WhatsApp
He picks up pretends to be sleepy or whatever says goodnight to me but the man didn’t drop the phone. And neither did I. That voice told me to stay on the line. And shame I listen when I’m told.
Guys I’m listening I’m listening I’m listening next thing I hear a girl say “can i have some blanket” 😯
Next thing I hear kissing sounds 😦
Next thing she’s moaning 😧
I hear my ex ask her for a condom 😶
The whole time on the phone guys
Guys I feel my world come to a standstill. I listen to two whole rounds im in the phone for like an hour
Guys I never even used to get two rounds for an hour 😢
Guys at this point my chest is hurdddinng me
I can’t breathe fine
My tears are blinding me 😭
The pain guys 😭
It felt like someone died
Before y’all say I’m over reacting
This is someone I hv 4 years of my life. I thought we were gonna get married and have cute babies and shii 😭
Two weeks go by I don’t hear nothing from him.
To make matters worse I got covid three days after and had to quarantine alone and just deal with it guys 😓
I’d be washing the bath guys and break down
I just wasn’t okay 😭
I decided to choose peace and not respond to this guy. For the past three months I’ve been going strong.
Hes tried to call with different numbers, whatsapp with different number, email, just things.
But like he’s been in my thoughts and my dreams like mad. So today he texted me with another number and I decided to respond. Because honestly guys I wanted him to tell me exactly what happened that night even though we both already knew .
But it was more of a thing that I wanted us to both acknowledge it so the chat doesn’t get confusing when they ask us why we broke up. Turns out the girl I heard him sleeping with was some other girl that beat me up in 2018 over him 💔
The buhlungz really dont phel 😓
Anyway I’ve blocked him on this new number and now that I’ve received the closure I’ve been looking for I’m choosing to move on.
But men though 💔
My last relationship taught me that the more chances you give someone, the less they value you. They’re not afraid to lose you because they know no matter what, you won’t walk away. Never let someone get too comfortable with disrespecting you. Love yourself first.