It’s not even pain honestly
Real pain is literally doing nothing there’s nothing fun to do nowadays but learn or do things that can put you in a different league
Never apologize for being obsessed. Read all day. Work all night. Run for hours. Forget time exists. Be everywhere, but be a ghost. Turn off the world and create your own. Let craft become compulsion. Positive obsession is a gift, disguised as a curse.
NGL I JUST HEARD SOMEONE SAY, “MAYBE YOU DON’T NEED MORE TIME TO HEAL, MAYBE YOU NEED MORE EXPERIENCES THAT SHOW YOUR NERVOUS SYSTEM A DIFFERENT REALITY,” AND YEAH… IT ECHOED IN ME