Anyone else keep feeling Liam’s death in waves? One minute I’m broken, the next I’m numb, the next I’m disassociating as if this isn’t real, then back to being broken.
man. it feels so weird being in your 20s mourning a celebrity who you once grew up with. shaped your teenage hood and you made life long friends out of. at the same time not excusing who he became but also trying to grieve who he once was.
that comment about how you should not borrow grief from the future has saved me multiple times from spiraling into an inescapable state of anxiety. like every time i find myself thinking about how something in the future could go wrong i remember that comment and i think -