You are no longer you from 5 years ago. Perhaps it's time to assess your surroundings. Don't feel bad to cut people out especially those who are only hindering your progress, the negative people and the pessimistic ones. They do you no good!
Eyes on you. You know what is good for you. Stop listening to excuses and reasons from other people. These dreams are for you, that is why they don't understand them.
Remove people and things that will only occupy the space for you to grow. You will thank yourself later for having the courage to do so. The quicker the better.