☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they)

Free Palestine 🇵🇸 | 26 | Concept Art Student | Veggie 🌱 | 5’11 | BMI 33 | CW 236.8 HW 373 UGW 95 | OCD | TW: ED/mental illness | Minors DNI

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

☆ Blue’s 3dtwt Intro/ Pinned ☆

✧₊⁺Osfed and OCD (among other things) ✧₊⁺. ₊ ⊹ . ˖ .
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★26 yrs old
☆5’11
★high sw
☆he/they pronouns only pls
★bi
☆Illustration+concept art student

pls like or rt if u wanna, im always looking for new mooties ♡

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

:(

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

god fuck fuck fuck

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

omg what tf i thought i wanted to c/s a bunch of food but the guilt isn’t letting me but it’s not letting me eat either

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

i am so scared and stressed

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

and i’m vomiting like every few days, usually at least once or twice or sometimes half the week it happens. i’m not purging on purpose ever though

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

wait no i’m scared oh god i don’t want to keep doing it but i feel like i have to oh my god i feel like crying

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

i can’t stop c/s’ing and it’s getting expensive i’m so scared i can’t stop it’s the only thing keeping me from bingeing

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

wait i might not because i feel guilty wasting money on that

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

anyway i’m making a pizza to c/s (with garlic sauce) YAYYYYY

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

i can’t stop c/s’ing and it’s getting expensive i’m so scared i can’t stop it’s the only thing keeping me from bingeing

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

i keep wondering this, is c/s considered bingeing. or is it not?? i wouldn’t think it is but ive been thinking more about it and i could imagine someone saying that it does count as bingeing. i want to know

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

officially 2 weeks without a binge !!!!!!!!!!!

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

@tinystarpup this is absolutely horrifying sky i am so so sorry that this occurred :( what a disgusting fucking man. i hate hate hate

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

i can’t stop c/s’ing and it’s getting expensive i’m so scared i can’t stop it’s the only thing keeping me from bingeing

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

@tearstainedeye i really like this picture of abby with the burrito

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

here’s a bust i am making in blender for my 3d class. it’s actually been fun, unlike how ive felt about making objects and stuff in blender previously. this will
be our final assignment before im finished my first year of illustration + concept art !!!! yayyyyy 🐸

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

i have a Uti ughhhhhh i went to a clinic next to my school and they prescribed me antibiotics. so atleast i won’t die over the weekend from it getting worse without treatment. ugh it feels bad

[T @toluu_ar]

All this just to die btw

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

@ichigofairie this is so cool, you deserve it namara!!! congratulations!!!! ♡

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

officially 2 weeks without a binge !!!!!!!!!!!

[☆Blue★-136.2 lbs (he/they) @osfediet]

@SoonMiniMoochie wait which one is your irl friend? any one of these three comments are horrifying to receive from a friend omg.., did they find your account without knowing it’s you? sorry i have so many questions

[𝓪𝓷𝓰𝓮𝓵˚𝜗𝜚˚⋆ @my_sweet_space]

i want to know what my life would’ve looked like if i had never developed an eating disorder

[𐔌 . ⋮ kris .ᐟ ֹ ₊ ꒱ @kriskawas]

i keep reading that EDs can kill you at any size and getting so paranoid that i’ll die from malnourishment and STILL be fat as fuck