in a pub with my partner and our friend watching the game rn and all i can do is look at the other people thinner than me and then i look down and see the fucking shelf full of fat being pushed up by my binder doing nothing.
High af. As a touch deprived child it took me so long to realize my dog just wants me to pet him for no reason sometimes. I’m like you are fed, housed, and appear to be fully functioning. Why r u in my face. I had not accounted for the rest of love. Love to me was only surviving.
my partner is helping me with binging by asking me whenever i go to eat “are you actually hungry” bc i binge too fucking much and need someone to actually remind me i’m not hungry
i love them
texted my friend who literally lives downstairs from me twice today asking about info/something i could grab from him and nothing
thinking of the worst imagining if my partner was here he prob would answer we would prob all be out tonight if my partner were here
my partner also uses kai razors like for facial hair and regular things to use them as and i had to have a legit convo with them asking them if they know thank god they didn’t but jfc opening the bathroom cupboard and seeing the handle there JUMPSCARE