If you ever feel like youโre too aware of everything just try to flip it, itโs easier to be pessimistic around everything but you have the capacity to share and do good with what you understand aswell
became obsessed with owls. I bought one of them and Iโm waiting for the second one to put them in a good place. They show emotion, scared frightened then affectionate creatures but at the same time they're so inanimate. It's the complete opposite of what rooster are, can't stand rooster, they're too loud that I remember. I like cats. Animals that require attention. Owls have this fuck you attitude and they have this only one exception for one being, I'm stuck in this tank, I'm miserable and I'm not going to paint for you.
youโre asking what you look like without a mirror or a picture there to see you, or to translate you.. and maybe thatโs the strange for some but I understand that curiosity itโs tiring. but yea.. everyone else sees a version of you that you can never quite meet yourself. in the end, itโs hm.. hard. and yes, even having that kind of curiosity can make you want to know that badly. I understand that part.. wanting to rip the skin from your face, hang it somewhere in the corner of the room, and just stare at it in wonder. there is hate in that, and there is acceptance too.. the acceptance that this is what you look like physically.