This apology is to my friends. I’m sorry if I don’t reach out anymore. I’m fighting for my life every day, second-guessing my career, doubting my life choices, scrolling through social media, and sleeping whenever I get free time just to escape reality.
Suicidal ideation, for many, isn’t about death.
It’s about relief.
From shame.
From feeling overwhelmed constantly. From feeling like a fucking burden.
The goal isn’t always “not wanting to be alive”
It’s just not wanting to live like this.