lyrica

she/her
22
This is my diary TW for sensitive content

[lyrica @painglorified]

@riacountscals sadly yeah

[lyrica @painglorified]

@wineorexic to save money

[lyrica @painglorified]

I hope I don't have to wait long to be admitted I really can't keep my shit together anymore I wanna relapse w crack so badly and if I do they won't admit me because i have to be clean

[lyrica @painglorified]

@starsandb4rs don't do that it wont kill u, you'll be in excruciating pain and end up in hospital if ure rly unlucky u can get blind i believe, i understand ure hurting i really do but this will make things sm worse

[lyrica @painglorified]

I remember screaming at the paramedics because I was in so much agony and panic and I couldn't move and I barely was able to actually pronounce words pls pls let me forget my brain keeps thinking those symptoms will occur again out of nowhere

[lyrica @painglorified]

Idk what I'm even doing this for I don't like how i look underweight I just try to find smth to fill the void now that im not using drugs. I'm either gonna kms or heal completely.

[lyrica @painglorified]

I keep having flashbacks from my last attempt (OD) and it stresses me out sm, I can't shower without getting nauseous because the pills had kicked in while I was showering and it felt like my heart was going to explode and I had such a horrible panic attack omg

[lyrica @painglorified]

@wineorexic so sorry I hope u can mentally and physically recover from this soon ❤️ 🫂

[lyrica @painglorified]

@puppygirlcals ure so pretty tho wow

[lyrica @painglorified]

@iPrettyscarsw don't, you'll likely survive but have a high chance of ending up in a wheelchair. I survived 2 attempts in july and it left me traumatised and worse than before i was in such excruciating agony, it wasn't worth it at all. I get what its like wanting to die, I still do too.

[lyrica @painglorified]

@bamchiraa don't, you'll regret it sm not sure if its abt sh, drugs or smth different but it's the same for it all. push through the urges u can do it if u push through them enough they'll get quieter !!

[lyrica @painglorified]

@oumarsu ure so so young, I'm 22 and I hate that I haven't gotten any help for my various issues as a minor. The sooner u recover the more you'll live an actual life. do it for urself and for the awesome memories you'll create during ur teen years, healing is always the right decision !

[lyrica @painglorified]

I'm soon gonna go to a day clinic and if they're bothered by my low-ish weight I'll gain it all back idc, I need the help

[lyrica @painglorified]

@user13689643 I LOST MY BUTT it makes me so sad

[lyrica @painglorified]

I have horrible issues with substances and I threw up blood a couple of times, survived 2 attempts in july, but my body took a lot of damage. My ed and malnourishment make it hard for me to stay clean and heal. I need help but idk how to get it. I want 2 die but not like this

[lyrica @painglorified]

@mikeywayl0v3r me**

[lyrica @painglorified]

@mikeywayl0v3r i hope u find something that makes living worth it for you, but i get it if u don't. I recently attempted too and I'm not happy to be alive BUT whatever u do don't try to od on random medication it traumatized me sm and i was lucky that it didn't put my in a wheelchair, take care

[lyrica @painglorified]

istg i commented somewhere that I've never experienced sleeping issues from my ed AND NOW I've been having the worst insomnia for days omg

[lyrica @painglorified]

@lizzie_calz ohh thats close too tho!! yay