I almost feel the loneliest I’ve ever felt, not only in a romantic setting but life in general, I know I’m not alone and have a lot of people here for me but I just feel the loneliness HARD and the more alone I feel the more alone I want to be… horrible vicious cycle
It’s always this time of year that I feel the worst mentally, last week or two of October and it doesn’t go away till after my birthday, it also seems to be that bad things happen during this time and drive me down even harder…
2 days post show… fire burns harder than ever… an amazing experience. Can’t wait to do it all over again but for now it’s time to grow and pack some serious tissue on
6 days out struggling with the fact that I have to just get a pump and leave it’s been 10 months of giving it my all when I enter these doors and having energy/reps left feels almost lazy, that being said it feels good to know the hard work paid off and it’s just maintenance now
One week out… spirits are high, energy and patience are low, I’ve been getting upset incredibly easily and I find myself not wanting to talk much… just exist, hungry here and there but not awfully. Started water loading today here goes the last push! #npcclassic
9 days out… last day of work pre-show was yesterday, I’m excited to just EXIST, reduce stress and just keep pushing until the last day, no letting off the gas yet though!
2 weeks out… do you ever have a conversation and know exactly what words you want to use but can’t say it? Like it’s clear in your mind what you’re trying to say but the words won’t come out? Well that’s ever conversation now ☺️ way easier to text than to speak
Carbs got dropped like never before today, it’s incredible what 25gr of oatmeal can do for your brain and your body when you’ve had no carbs all day and you’re used to a lot of them
#NPCclassic#bodybuilding#classicphysique
Waking up 3 weeks out from a show:
I’m ready to go mentally but will I be ready physique wise? Fuck it LETS GO (but what if I fuck it up fuck maybe not ready yet)