If you offer me a sincere apology and change your behavior, I'll never bring up our past issues again. But if no apology was given and you're still repeating mistakes, you can't ask me to stop mentioning the past. The past is actually the present if you haven't changed.
You didn’t care how your actions were affecting me. Not when I was explaining it. Not when I was trying to communicate it. Not even when it was clearly hurting me. It only mattered once it started affecting how I treated you. Once I pulled back. Once I changed. Once I stopped being the same with you. That’s when you noticed. So no. I will not allow you to have access to me ever again.
Stop expecting peace from a woman who’s been carrying disappointment, neglect, confusion, loneliness, and emotional exhaustion alone. Even the strongest person gets tired.