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[۟ @godsfell]

now that all is said and done, / isn’t there anyone to tell me who i am?

[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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she can barely hold her smile . rolling her eyes slightly .

“ should i take a break and keep you company ? ”
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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he flashes her an irresistible grin , before protesting his innocence .

“ what ? can i help you with anything ? “

he keeps up the grin , knowing she’ll see through his fake innocence .
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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that makes her pause . blinking once . twice —— turning around slowly in his chair to face him .

“ yes ? ”
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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throws a scrunched up ball of paper at @pastguns whilst she’s working at her desk .

is he bored ? maybe .
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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she shakes her head , pressing a lingering kiss to his forehead .

“ you don’t need to thank me , ” she says , lying back down and gently pulling him down with her , “ i’ll always be here when you need me . always . ”
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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“ i know , i know . you’re right . “

he shrugged , slightly , leaning into her as a form of comfort .

“ thank you . . . “
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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“ i don’t think it matters how long it’s been . the trauma . . it stays with you , ” she says , pressing her forehead against his temple .

“ you were just a kid , jon . ”
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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he sighs softly .

“ i just — “ he hesitates .

“ it’s just been so long , but it’s still raw ? “
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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cue her hand moving to gently run her fingers through his hair .

“ the trauma stays with you . it’s normal , ” she whispers , “ and you’re about to become a dad in the next couple of weeks . i think it makes sense that you’re thinking about that now . ”
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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he shrugs softly , gently tilting one way to lean against her .

“ i just can’t help it , sometimes . . . i don’t know why . “
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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she places her hand on top of his , gently stroking it with her thumb . she nods , then .

“ yeah , i remember , ” she says , “ i hate what he still does to you . even if it’s better than before . ”
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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he shook his head softly , gently placing a hand on her pregnancy bump .

“ no . . . i’m okay , now . i know it’s just a dream , now . before it was hard . you remember , right ? “
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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she hates that he still suffers like this because of his father —— after everything he’s been through .

“ do you need anything ? ” she asks , “ ellie’s moving a lot , if you want to say hi . ”
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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he just nodded , not saying much more than that .

“ i don’t really remember it . he was just there , again . “
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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she presses a kiss to his shoulder , then to his cheek . rubbing gentle circles on his back —— a soothing gesture .

“ you can talk to me , babe . did you have one of ( *those ) nightmares again ? ”
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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he harshly swallows as he looks over at her with a soft smile and a knowing nod .

“ yeah — fine . don’t worry . “
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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startling awake as he does —— sitting up and reaching out to him . placing a hand on his back .

“ jon ? hey— what’s going on ? what is it ? ”
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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he’s suddenly awake .

it’s god knows what time .

he’s in a cold sweat .

heavy breathing .
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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she shakes her head .

“ no . i want to go to the hospital . i don’t want to be told i’m overreacting without even being examined , i want doctors to take a look and tell us what’s going on . ”
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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he nods slowly , his hand doing circles down the small of her back .

“ do you want me to phone the doctor ? “
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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she exhales slowly as it passes , a tear rolling down her cheek .

“ i don’t like this , jon . these don’t feel normal . they’re worse than the ones i’ve had before— ”
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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“ it’s okay , i’m here . i’m not going anywhere . “

he spoke softly , making sure his comfort was felt as well as heard .
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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nana’s around ??
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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she nods , though she’s still tense and very stressed out .

but then —— her other hand flies to her stomach as she feels another contraction .

“ jonathan— ” she whimpers softly , trying to breathe through it .
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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he shuffles over , his arm going around her shoulder and letting her rest on him .

“ hey , hey . it’s okay . it’s probably nothing , right ? and if it is , then we’ll sort it . together . “

a soft kiss is pressed on the top of her head , in comfort .
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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she breathes with him in silence for a moment , her breath hitching when her eyes suddenly fill with tears .

“ jon , i’m scared , ” she admits , her voice cracking .

“ what if i’m wrong ? what if it’s not just braxton hicks ? she’s too little . . ”
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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“ it’s okay , i’m here . just breathe slowly . . . in and out . “

he mimicked the breathing pattern , slow and deliberate , one hand on her back gently rubbing in circles .
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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“ it’s probably just . . braxton hicks or something . stress . ”

she takes a slow , deep breath as she sits up , one hand under her stomach .

“ i don’t . . i don’t know . i need to stay calm so it doesn’t get worse . and i’m not calm , right now . ”
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[𝑱.𝑩. @famillelealta]

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“ already ? “

he mumbled as he rolled over to face her , rubbing his eyes somewhat to improve his vision .

“ what can i do to help you ? “
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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getting closer so she can examine the cut herself —— still concerned .

“ i don’t think it needs stitches , but i’m still helping you with that . ”
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[‍ ‍ ‍ ‍ ᵀᴴᴱ ‍ ‍ ‍ 𝙿͟𝙰͟𝙻͟𝙰͟𝙳͟𝙸͟𝙽. @D0YOUC0PY]

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an exhale, not wanting her to fuss. “i fell off my bike,” he says, simply, examining his cut in the mirror. “i’m fine.”

[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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frowning as she approaches —— concerned .

“ hey— what the hell happened ? ”
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[‍ ‍ ‍ ‍ ᵀᴴᴱ ‍ ‍ ‍ 𝙿͟𝙰͟𝙻͟𝙰͟𝙳͟𝙸͟𝙽. @D0YOUC0PY]

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gently moving hair to the side, trying to bandage an open cut by his temple.
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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handing a cup of coffee to the ( *reader ) .
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[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

https://t.co/r6bqkdnoM2 will most likely dm you first if we haven’t written together before . 🫶🏻

[‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ ‎ 𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐘. @pastguns]

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she’s hugging her back just as tightly .

“ they really don’t warn you about how much you’re gonna need your mom as an adult . ”
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[️️ ️️️️️️️️️ 𝓀𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑛. ( young event ) @withherwine]

giving her a biiiig squeeze.

she has missed her.