Anyone who has ever extracted themselves from a relationship with a narcissistic abuser knows it isn’t clean or easy.
I cringe remembering how many times I tried to play the “cool girl” or fawn in response to what was clearly abusive, coercively controlling behavior by Graham.
I also know how dangerous it is to become the target of a narcissist — so even long after our relationship ended I continued to be upbeat any time he reached out, though I would also immediately shut down any attempts on his part to initiate flirting or romanticizing of the past.
Yes, the day I saw him announce he was running I wanted to make sure people knew he had a Nazi tattoo — and I was terrified he would find out it was me.
But of course he knew it was me.
What’s ironic is I absolutely never would have shared my story if he hadn’t been relentlessly attacking my character behind the scenes for months once the tattoo story came out.
I tried to signal that I wasn’t the source and stayed completely silent about him on social media even as most of my friends posted regularly about what a bad person he is.
But then in early April the New York Times came to me. I asked how they got my number. I said I was not interested in sharing my story. They said but wait—there are other women. Women terrified to tell their stories, too, and you need to band together. WE will help you. We will protect you. Men can’t keep getting away with this.
Hours before their first call to me I saw Eric Swalwell’s name plate get removed from his office door in Cannon. It felt like fate.
I welcomed the two journalists into my home days later, nervous and overwhelmed. Justin Fairfax had just murdered his wife and himself the previous day and even conservative pundits were conjecturing that “if only those women hadn’t accused him of abuse, this never would have happened…”
But I told them my story. I let them take pictures of my diary pages. I sent them screenshots of messages and gave them phone numbers and contacts. It was excruciating. I was surprised by what details I remembered, and as I poured through old messages I was horrified by how much I had forgotten.
I explained very clearly that, like many women abused by their partners, I had not told anyone about his violence at the time—I had covered for and defended it. I accepted his earnest apologies. They said that’s fine because the diary entries and my on the record story was enough.
They connected me to two of the other victims so we wouldn’t feel so alone. I insisted to each of them that I trusted the NYT journalists and that we were doing the right thing despite their (sadly very accurate) sense that something was wrong.
One of the victims and I realized our relationships with Graham overlapped completely - he had been cheating on both of us the entire time we were together.
I should note here that my life is just… beautiful. These are the best years of my life. Raising two young girls in a safe, beautiful neighborhood where I work from home and shuffle my children from dance classes and soccer to church events — I am blessed far beyond what I deserve with wonderful friends and family and the most loving, brilliant husband in the world. Why would I blow my life up like this? Why would I risk the psychotic doxxing from violent leftist activists?
Because while I have been terrified to come forward I decided this was the “hard right thing” to do. The guilt of staying silent has nagged me.
Most therapists recommend a “gray rock” approach to extracting yourself from narcissistic abuse — it works really well, but it is a gift to the abuser, allowing them to persist in their delusion that they’ve done nothing wrong.
I couldn’t stay silent as he continued to lie and lie and lie. I want my daughters to boldly speak out if they’re ever abused as I was.
People really have memory-holed just how little (by which I mean, nonexistent) the evidence was for Christine Blasey Ford's accusations. There is still no substantiation that she and Brett Kavanaugh have ever been in the same room together, let alone met.
NEVER trust a journalist.
EVER.
I would trust a cop more than a journalist. A cop has ethical standards and training, and most are required to wear bodycams so that their conduct can be reviewed.
Journalists have no such ethical safeguards. Your AVERAGE journalist is as narcissistic as the WORST cop.
Furthermore, Journalists are REWARDED for unethical conduct, while cops (at worst) get their unethical conduct ignored or swept under the rug. Bad cops (generally) know it's wrong, but do it anyway. Journalists have no such morals.
Lastly, there are actually good cops. There are NO good journalists. Just narcissists who agree with you. (Hi, @JamesOKeefeIII )
It is starting to look like people at the New York Times lured in one of Graham Platner’s victims to try to bury the story for him, but were forced to publish something watered down, due to apparent infighting, which is what came out yesterday, in a way that would leave enough grist for bad actors to portray Platner as a victim of a right-wing witch hunt, exactly as happened:
“It dawned on me that this really was a set-up all along. The journalists I trusted, who convinced me to share a story I never wanted to tell, methodically delayed and twisted this into a gift to the Platner campaign. Violating the trust of his victims. Shattering the trust I placed in them with the most vulnerable story of my life.”
The newest trend in radical left lawfare: Go to a court that will agree with you and get them to stop litigation happening in other districts around the country.
The hospitals trans-ing kids tried the same thing. Luckily, in that case, Reed O’Connor wasn’t have it.
It’s even more egregious here, where the court clearly lacks jurisdiction over the matter.
If I’m @AGJamesUthmeier, I’m seriously contemplating ignoring this court order.
Nazi tattoo, justified rape, said he'd rape people to show dominance, profile on notorious predator site, sexting scandal, variety of bad online comments, and now domestic abuse allegations.
Matt: "That's it?"
watching pratt explain in detail how he’d change the reservoir system at the debate was specifically what made me think he could do this. fine to disagree with him, but people like akilah are really just writing fan fiction for the people dumb enough to think they’re smart.
@Charliemagne Well that's bad legal advice. That memo is perfect documentation of for cause firing. Being rude to your boss is absolutely grounds for firing.
It's the end of US military 'aid' to Israel as we know it. Everything changes starting today. And you might have never noticed it unless you were told. My latest: https://t.co/Q5V4jTsqkK