oh wow itsbeen a whole year since ive posted here (โ ย โ โนโ โฝโ โนโ ย โ ) i was on and off abt recovery nd well um yea that is not rly working out for me and im tired so im back lol
that i had literally 6 months 6 MONTHS!! to lose all this & get to wheere is comfortable for a lil bit of gain but sigh its ok . i was attempting recov nd failed n struggled for like no reason idk
i think ill be ok losing a bit before my surgery like Not insanely fast bc thatd be stupid!!!!!! I've been saving up for top surgery And working from sunrise to sunrise And gah its so so hard even the thought of maintaining leading up and after which is why im so upset
im happy Im 21 bc now i can buy cigs i had hoped to honestly give up on recov n be at my ugw my birthday and instead gained for it to be the shittiest day ever so Lol
oh wow itsbeen a whole year since ive posted here (โ ย โ โนโ โฝโ โนโ ย โ ) i was on and off abt recovery nd well um yea that is not rly working out for me and im tired so im back lol
wondering how diff id be at my lw at this age . . i do get pretty sad seeing how much bonier ppl R at my lw ? ? lik i wasnt skinny fat but my bones just wouldnt show idk