j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷

still fighting against this growing-up thing...

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@maygra @gekizetsu Not sure if you're still with us, or will see this, or if you're even XX chromosome, but if you are, and you're menopausal, look up the research of UTIs and perimeno/menopause. They've only recently linked them because who studies XX chromosomes? Aren't we all just men? 😅

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu I wish I could have told you it was probably related to the menopause. Unfortunately they've only just realized this as women were never properly studied until the past 5 years.
And more unfortunately this illness seems to have been what took you from this world. I miss you.

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

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[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu Hi my friend. I'm still around, just forgetting I have a Twitter account.
I'm sorry you've been unwell...you certainly need to start caring for yourself like you do your kitties. But just bc you're important to us...but Macchi needs her mom to be well to take care of Macchi. 😉💖

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu She was the perfect troublemaker you were hoping to have. I'm glad you found each other. ❤️

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu I feel this way.
But it was 17 years with a dog & now it's been 6 months without one & the loneliness sucks so much. I hate not having to run home to feed a bb & take them for a walk. Having no one to depend on me makes me feel useless.
I hate it.
Mostly I just want Bella back.

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu Macchi's affection towards you tells me you did your best and you love with all your heart and that she understands that.

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu You did enough. And you did your best. Making this choice will always feel wrong regardless...Did I let her go too soon? Was she ready yet?
Did I wait too long? Did she suffer?
I've done this four times and every time felt wrong, even when I knew there was no other option.

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu Yeah, picking up their ashes just left me such a mess. I found it easier when I buried my boys.
But I do plan on sending some of my girls' ashes away to put into a glass heart...when I can muster parting with some.
I'm finding it easier to send some of my mom's to her brother...

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu I'm still crying for Bella and carrying around a stuffed dog and my mom's now been gone for 2 weeks. I will mourn them both forever....along with my Houdini, Monster and Emmie-loo. Family is family.

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu I'm so sorry she had to leave you. 😭❤️

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu A little bit of bacon fat mixed into whatever you want her to actually eat might help.

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

Goodbye my beautiful, mama.
Until we meet again in heaven.
Love you. Miss you.

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu Like you were graced with two kitties when you needed each other the most, I'm sure, when the time comes, you will find exactly what your heart needs. 💕

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu I use my IG for this purpose because it's my dog account and most of those that follow me feel the same about their furkids.
I still post a memory of Bella weekly... it's been over 5 months.

Death sucks.

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu I beg for this every time. 😭

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu I rented remember your request...and how happy you were to learn you had that in Chai 🤣

[j̷u̷s̷t̷i̷g̷n̷o̷r̷e̷m̷e̷ @peachcobra]

@gekizetsu I'm so so sorry, my friend. I know how much you love those dear kitties. My heart hurts for you because I know this pain and wish it on no one.

Friday, May 27, 2022 is a terrible day for us both.
In 13 hours I will be saying goodbye to my mother because she's had enough, too.