on dates to places that were kind of special to the two of us. I acted like an asshole moral police when she got involved with a married man and which lead her away further.
While facing all this negativity I met my current wife J (31 F). J was the opposite of Q in a lot of ways.
not bring myself to fall in love with her all over again due to the earlier incidents. I tried to take things slow and told her that I did not want to mislead her by giving her false hope that we could get back together. I was unsure and wanted to come to terms with what I feel.
quite heartbroken and in a downward spiral after that for a while.
Sadly, the arranged engagement fell through and she was alone and abandoned for a while. We met again after her engagement broke off and felt that there still was a spark between us. However, this time I could