꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱

ugw 42 gw 45 cw 48

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

tf u mean my calorie tracking app became pay to weight loss?? i’ve always used calory and now that ive relapsed i have to pay are you shitting me???

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

brb sobbing

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

anyway but the guy i’m talking to it a literal green forest he is so so sweet i really like him. but im like not sure of i am ready for a relationship (which i did tell him because communication is key) and his respond was “i dont mind waiting for you since i think youre amazing”

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

isn’t it crazy that whenever i start seeing someone i immediately drop 5kgs? but like im not even trying

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

by myself my body the way people around me made me feel. i’m disgusted even by my own emotions and the fact that i ate that shit it didn’t even taste good but i was so fucking hungry and shaking please someone tell me it’s okay i’m about to sob

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

also i haven’t eaten anything today except for like a fourth of a fucking apple because i was so upset about how my friends made me feel and now i was so incredibly hungry that i just ate a pack of those quick ramens and god that’s so fattening but i felt like passing out

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

and since it’s 1am i can not cook anything nutritious and im gonna look so fat also i’m not even sure anymore i feel so fucking disgusted by everything

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

i’ve got a date on friday but my friends made me feel so fucking anxious and all the joy is just gone now

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

@greentea_fairy that is so true :( i love fruits so so much

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

guys have u tried keto and if yes what are your thoughts?

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

@zZryji yeah it really feels heavy,ive just started today but everything i ate felt a lot heavier than usual! i think ill keep going until i give in to the cravings but so far i quite like the idea of it. now it only needs to work out for me 🙏🙏 thank you so much for sharing your exp!🫶

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

@zZryji may i ask why? i started today being really happy on how i can eat the food i usually crave most while restricting but then i realised there’s not that much i can eat actually

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

@mariellecals fr

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

i’m so drunk i threw up everything, even my dinner is that a slay?

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

my mother had to bathe me cuz i was too drunk relatable or nah?

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

what’s your biggest trigger? oh this and that- LISTEN

uggs hoodie and skinny legs.

i said what i said

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

forced me time ig

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

also i want to see if i can lose weight this way

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

okay so i’m starting my juice detox tmr since i drank all week this week and my liver isn’t thanking me :,) doing smth good for my body after a week of torturing it

[꒰ა vivienne 🦋🦕🫐 ໒꒱ @pecalchy]

i’ve been eating so well and practically recovered but there’s still this voice in my stupid head which i can’t seem to get rid of i’m so tired