bev 🦚🍉

I make things and constantly overshare my thoughts.

[doomer @uncledoomer]

you can see it in his eyes. hes going to kill again

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

The way my brain automatically read this as “the greatest state, California”

I know that’s what he really meant to say.

[Gavin Newsom @GavinNewsom]

HAPPY 176TH BIRTHDAY TO THE GREAT STATE OF CALIFORNIA!

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

The worst person you know that doesn’t actually do anything to help underserved communities or care for basic humanity is on their high horse over jokes today.

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

All week, I looked forward to taking cheeks to school on our bike yesterday. Did not bother to check that it was 103. I regretted my choice 3 pedals in. 🥴

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

@oknandaa Omg come over. That sounds miserable 🥴

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

I showed cheeks a video of her babbling as a baby and she said “omg I used to talk like sister” 😂😂😂

[akil & saltfish @yungdessalines]

its actually insane how crocs won the culture war

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

Then I mourn for the parents who do and have done it alone. I’m so grateful.

Thank you for reading my think post on “how I feel when I look at my 4 month old”

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

And then I think about how I’m doing all of this with a partner who is also trying to grow in ways they never imagined. And is so willing to try. Try because we still can and we’re better together for it.

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

And then i think.. this is going to be so much better when i can take my medicine. I’m having to do double the mental load, because i still can’t take my adhd meds. It’s truly so debilitating. They’re right. We cant do anything.

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

Sometimes i look at my Family. Right now specifically my baby And this wave of gratitude rushes me. I‘ve had this incredible pressure to grow in a way i never imagined. Because i needed to grow to survive being a mom of two.

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

i deserved and needed to grow if I wanted to continue showing up in way that is good for me, others and makes me happy as well.and this pressure for the need to grow came along with my baby. but it makes showing up more achievable. and that makes me so happy.

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

And by doing all of this. I’m having more energy to see the people ive been wanting to see. I had lunch with a friend last week. I have two schedules hangs next week with another set of friends. It’s been so wonderful to see the growth i have had. I’m so proud of myself.

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

I have Been working a lot on self discipline and being consistent. Drawing every day so i get better. Sticking to my schedules and creating them weekly. Having my socials locked majority of the days. It’s been about 2 months and I’ve been doing so great.

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

I think thats for everyone. Not just parenting, but its really loud in parenting,because kids are loud about it lol

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

parenting is a lot of self discipline, consistency, and accountability. If a parent struggles with the first 2. then you have to take accountability for the consequences. There is no short cut for what it takes to help a human thrive. And sometimes a kid needs the longest route.

[bev 🦚🍉 @pendejad4s]

@FatAries1994 I think I feel the same way. But my sympathies have a limit for evil like trump? They had one life. And they spent it having these horrible draining feelings. What a sad way to have lived when it didn't have to be like that. I also understand when people cheer though.