“I’ve never seen a woman in a film be/become a monster and still be loved” okay so if you are not familiar with the 2006 American film called “Monster House” just say that
The cool thing about being raped is that afterwards your choices are either try to pretend it never happened & let them get away with it or make your entire community hate you. The first option is easier and less traumatic, which the rapist knows.
goldstar lesbian is a misogynistic term and largely serves the patriarchal idea that a woman is “tainted” by a man. you’re not an “epitome of female homosexuality” you’re a weirdo, hope that helps!