“he decided he was going to give up being peter parker and he was gonna focus on being spider-man, because being peter parker was too hard.”
no one touch me
peter feels like sinking, because everything is just dragging him down, and no matter how hard he tries to claw out of the neverending pit of darkness, he keeps being pushed down, drowning, deafening, breathless
it digged deep into his skin, itching and never leaving, and peter tried to make them go away, but the cold (and sadness and loneliness and guilt) is so heavy in his stomach and heart and he couldn't get it off him, no matter how hard he try, no matter how hard he scream
and peter thought about all of his memories, carved eternally onto his heart, the people who were his drive to greet the sun and bask in the warmth of love, dizzying him with affection, enveloping him tenderly, unlike the chill-biting winter that caresses him aggressively.
on slower crime days mcu peter will swing around in his suit anyways bc it's one of the only times he gets to talk to people who at least know who part of him is