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hey

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anyway i didn’t eat at all and then ate a lot what else is new

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having to clarify to a friend that i’ve been not eating in the depression way and not the eating disorder way

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hey y’all

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does anyone know how to get out of the hole of feeling like nothing good will ever happen for you after life just keeps beating you down over and over lol

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i hate that i have to take my meds w food i tried not to and i felt so sick but how am i supposed to eat every 6 hours

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i’m scared lol

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went to the dr and they prescribed me tramadol :o

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now i really can’t drink if i wanna have a liver or whatever

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i’m also have spicy pork belly marinating in the fridge rn which i’m gonna feel guilty for eating but i’m making it for my grandma so i feel less bad abt it plus i can leave a bunch of it w her and not have it around to eat more than a few pieces

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and ok not a drop of alcohol today wow

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going to bed in like 2 minutes and i finally didn’t binge for the first day in like 3 weeks oh my godddddd i could cry

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i want to starve myself for the rest of the year

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are 2 packs of instant noodles and i truly feel like i could explode and d!e

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where did my brain even come up with that that was so oddly rude

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had a dream where i was talking to an ex abt why we broke up and they said they never wanted me they just had a problem with their central nervous system lmaooo

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@hyunjincals that would make me sleep for like 30 hours straight, i wanna get down to less drinks each time bc this binge drinking makes me feel like shiiiit, thank u <3

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honestly i shouldn’t be allowed to drink every time i do i eat too much :(

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violently lonely