lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ

the heaviness in my heart’s been crushing me | cw 98.2 | lw 90.8 | bmi 18.8

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ looking for #edtwt moots ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪

✮⋆˙ 25 yo

✮⋆˙ goal bmi 17

✮⋆˙ ednos

✮⋆˙ loves: kpop, reading, writing

✮⋆˙ pro recovery

♡ / ↺ to be moots ૮ ․ ․ ྀིა

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

my feet hurt so much from my daily steps that it genuinely hurts to press on the pedals when i’m driving home 👍🏻

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

i swear eating watermelon as a snack makes me even hungrier than if i didn’t eat anything at all

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

@losing_loxxy like it’s definitely healthy for you and the nutrients are good but it won’t help you lose weight on its own 😭

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

i remember when my parents were dieting and their way of doing that was to add a salad to dinner 💀 (not eating less dinner or skipping dessert, mind you, just…adding a salad)

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

i weighed myself yesterday fully expecting to have gained weight just to find that i lost half a pound…guess my 20k steps a day really Are doing something

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

@skinnlheart remember when you were smaller, yes, but also: remember when ALL you could think about was your body. remember when your entire life revolved around food, around eating & the lack thereof. and compare it to now, when your life has substance to it too, things to actually live for

[gnorp @gnorpe]

how it fucking feels

[cassie is follow limited 𝄞 @keepitcassiie]

"starving feels SOOO euphoric" the average experience:

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

very long & exhausting day at work today but on the plus side i’m sure i burned way more calories than usual

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

@rosieskcals7 oh sweetheart :( you are still so young, i hope that someday you get to experience happiness and healing and celebrate a birthday where you can be free <3

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

seeing a smaller number on the scale is always so satisfying

but it’s never quite as satisfying as you expect it to be

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

@REFR4CT happy birthday!!

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

23,500 steps today 👍🏻

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

my toxic trait is restricting well for one (1) day and expecting to lose weight from that 🤪

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

weird ah position for a bodycheck but i like the way it makes my bones look

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

@trainwreckxic we have those cookies at work & i think of you every time i put them out

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

@caffeinecoded spizzy it’s the body dysmorphia talking :(

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

it’s like. i want somebody to reassure me that i’m skinny, but i can’t ask without seeming attention seeking because i know, arguably, that i am. but looking in the mirror it doesn’t feel that way. and i can’t really ask edtwt either because i’m huge by these standards

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

@caffeinecoded i feel so sad for younger you :( there’s definitely a huge visible difference and somebody should’ve said something. mental health can be difficult to approach bc people don’t really know what to say but that doesn’t mean they shouldn’t try

[lacy ᢉ𐭩.ᐟ @phobiacals]

@trainwreckxic honestly i think about you a lot and i really wish you well :( there really isn’t anything more for you to lose