aku ga suka konsep tarik ulur like mind games in relationship. some ppl say aku terlalu welcome n too easy to approach karena aku genuine. sometimes aku kepikiran juga, “aku salah apa ya sampai dilepas?”
but then i realized, i’m not wrong, i’m just being kind n treating people with respect.
just bcs i’m genuine doesn’t mean i’m not good enough. love should b easy, not confusing. i don’t want a relationship where i hv to pretend to b cold, hard to get, or harus main game biar dihargai.
kalau memang aku dilepas, maybe they’re just not my person. buka berarti aku kurang. the right person will appreciate my kindness, not take it for granted 🥹🤏🏻
tapi jujur, nangis karena kasian sama diri sendiri itu rasanya beda. It’s not angry crying, it’s exhausted crying. Lu nangisin versi lu yang udah berjuang keras tapi jarang dapet break or appreciation—even from yourself
everybody wants peace until they realize peace means changing your tone when speaking with someone who has irritated you, no longer making everything an argument, listening before responding, setting boundaries and understanding boundaries others have set.
I don't know who needs to hear this but someone recently told me "no amount of waiting will make you more brave, and no amount of worrying will make it more safe."
And honestly I think about this everyday.
btw it's so fucking stupid you can be anxious physically in your body even after you've decided mentally you don't care. I'm supposed to be in charge here.
dengan kerusakan sebesar ini gw gak bisa bayangin orang jenis apa yang bisa dan menyanggupi jadi presiden di periode berikutnya... kayak sehancur itu, how to fix something so rotten anjir i cant even imagine. even it's not improvement anymore its full on repairement kontol
istg GUA harus stop ngelakuin sesuatu yg udh berkali kali bikin gua nyesel dan bikin gua malu tiba” klo gua keinget pas lgi berkegiatan like wtfff. gapapa we still learn💗
Peluk jauh untuk mereka yang sedang in a phase of trying to make peace with all the disappointment, without having to blame anyone for the pain they’re feeling. Itu memang salah satu tahap paling berat dalam life, but trust me and believe, you will get through this.