pika 🩹🐹

deadly sad existence.

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

INTRO !!

⋆ˊˎ- name: pika
⋆ˊˎ- 7teen years old
⋆ˊˎ- prns: she / her
⋆ˊˎ- 2 yrs clean but things are getting worse again so 🫠
⋆ˊˎ- i am from a controversial country but do not support any bad events currently happening
⋆ˊˎ- 🩷 / 🔁 to be moots and I follow back!

#shtwt

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

Lowkey leaving the account bcs i gotta lock in and recover. It's been fun but I hope I don't end up on here again.

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

Finding out I actually do care about my future and want to live a good life after throwing it away and not being locked in the entirety of my high school years is actually kind of traumatizing

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

@izzyyballz @lilycal115 But you are still using it as an insult..? Why can't you call out weird behaviour without shitting on a literal mental illness

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

I genuinely dont even want to eat anymore

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

Man my account is flopping so bad

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

Sometimes I start thinking there is hope and then the good people in my life hurt me badly

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

by everyone and i end up having no one, my own friends dont like me for who i am because they dont know who i am, if i were myself and i were confident i wouldnt feel so inferior to people and i would feel like i have a chance at life i just cant do anything

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

I geniuenely wish i could kill myself i wish i could theres no point to my life whatsoever i dont see how i can keep going but i must because im not capable of killing myself nor do i really want to but i feel like it would be better than staying alive because the truth is i hate

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

hate myself, i despise myself not for who i am but for who i dont let myself be, if i just followed my true self people around me would see that and i would feel more confident, everything would be different but im stuck in a watered down version of myself to just be acceptable

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

Why am i so stupid why do i keep doing things that make me sick

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

@romancefrankie The fuckass tiny blades from multi blade razors but my kai razors are arriving soon 😈

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

@polkapea "we can see them" good..? They dont have to be hidden

[pea♡ @polkapea]

tiktok mfs see 1 healed scar and go crazy

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

I 👹 NEED 👹 MORE 👹 PASTEL 👹 IN 👹 MY 👹 LIFE 👹 RIGHT 👹 NOW 👹

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

I really am feeling better and that bothers me so much because i know it's not real.

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

I told myself I can relapse after 7 days. But I don't really feel like it?. Wth is going on

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

I am not buying anything that isnt pink anymore ever.

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

I am sick of things not looking the way I want them to look.

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

Just when my will to live came back, school took it away again

[pika 🩹🐹 @pikapr0]

@ItzSunday12 You are the standard