#edrtwt
silent lurker of edtwt finally making an account
dx ana-bp for 8 years
22 years old, 167 cm
lw 30 kg
hw/sw 75 kg
cw 50 kg
gw 39 kg
follow to be moots :)
losing weight youโve already lost is literally torture cause u already know what u look like at the weight you wanna get back to so itโs like ur suffering just to be mid again
bmi 17 is the worst because you kinda get a taste of what itโs like to be skinny like you have a glimpse of a thigh gap and a glimpse of your chest bones but youโre also kinda fat at the same time
thinking about the time i overdosed on laxatives and the psychiatrist came to talk to me because she thought i was trying to unal!ve and i had to explain to her that i was just trying to get skinny
@emimimimimiii honestly i preferred when i was recovering on my own outside of hospital than with professional help but i think it definitely helped that i had a good support system at the time
first time i was hospitalized they made me gain from 30 kg to 65 kg and it took me 18 months to lose again and then they just hospitalized me again ๐๐๐