i have recently finished a little life and i'm seriously considering if it was in fact even better than rwrb??
definitely not worse, i binged the last two thirds in two days staying up till 4am, it happened to me last time when i'd been reading war and peace
nvm it took literally one therapy session
btw new level of germanification unlocked today! i sprained my foot (?) and went to notaufnahme to check if it was a fracture or not and it went better than i could imagine and my german was sufficient and i spent only two hours threre!!
he asked me to go bouldering today and we did and it was altogether fun and joy and i flew across all the walls trying to impress and i was also hanging on a thought how the fuck i did this to me. why. it’s terrifying. on a good side i could take a glance over his naked back
in two days we'll be separated for several weeks, and i know i'll be devastated not in a funny way, because i have not seen him since yesterday evening and i'm already grieving
gay depression is real. like, why am i into guys if he isn’t. or why is he into girls. or why am i even.. am. at such moments i wonder about asexual people.. no this painful longing, no listening to bitter songs, maybe it’s easier. or maybe it’s better to feel and live through it