No one can use my past against me.
I'll look you in the eye and tell you everything.
No edits, no filters. Every mistake, every failure i own it. Ive already faced the darkest parts of my life. They don't control me anymore, they built me.
What you whisper about, I've already lived through. What tried to break me is the reason I'm still here. I'm not ashamed of where I've been.
I'm proud of how I got out.
I'm a parentified daughter...
Which means Inconsideration irritates me more than it should. I was raised to anticipate everyone else's needs while ignoring my own. I learned to notice every shift in tone, every inconvenience, every unspoken expectation before it became a problem. Hyper-awareness wasnt a personality trait it meant survival.
The moment you throw my insecurities in my face, you lose access to me. Those insecurities were born from battles you never had to fight. Love does not mock survival, & care does not turn scars into weapons.
I don't care what happens anymore. I've reached that point where I've tried, cried, and cared too much for too long. Now everything just feels numb. I'm not angry, I'm not sad, I'm just tired. Tired of hoping things will get better when they never do. So whatever happens, happens. I'll just let life do what it wants with me.
I gave you EVERYTHING I had. Not pieces of myself, not what was convenient, but the full weight of my care. I wanted to be the one who stood beside you through every version of your life, who invested in your healing, your growth, your future without keeping score. I stayed when staying was hard. I chose you CONSISTENTLY, in ways you never seemed to notice and never chose to return. What you left behind was not just a relationship. It was a woman who LOVED you without condition and walked away with damage she never deserved to carry. The part that stays with me is not the hurt. It is the quiet wonder of whether you ever truly understood what you had.