𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷

bulimic turned binge ed sufferer, just trying to get myself back together | lw 150 hw 245 cw 119.8 *ଘ(੭*ˊᵕˋ)੭* ੈ‧₊˚ 14 months binge free 🎀

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

i’m now 54.35kg aka severely underweight for my height and my period is late …. pretty sure i finally lost my period due to being underweight

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

i was maintaining 57kg for so long and i unintentionally lost 2kg😭😭😭 just lost weight for no damn reason i wasn’t even starving

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

and i thought i gained 😩 bmi 16s officially !!!!!!!!

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

how do i starve myself without my partner who lives w me noticing 😁😁😁😁😁 (i do omad most days i just wanna have liquids only until friday for max weightloss lmao)

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

it’s crazy i need to be 55kg by friday LIKE I NEED TO BE

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

i’m actually fuckimg huge i need to die

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

bmi 17.4😝😝😝😝😝😝

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

i’m on my period so i overate yesterday …. i had two greasy ass pastries and a cinnamon sugar pretzel IM HUGE

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

being underweight as a former fat is crazy bc why am i told im concerningly skinny but i look in the mirror and i look the same as i did at bmi 34?

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

@kinderwhoring u got this though!!! i understand. i went from bmi 21 to bmi 33.9 and now im at 17.8 !!! don’t be discouraged but also stay safe and don’t be too hard on yourself 💗💗

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

worst thing about being underweight is being freezing all the time … it’s 23°c n sunny and i’m in my snuggie and fluffy socks 😭

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

@xbii__ thank u🔥🔥🔥🔥 i’ve so far only had a coffee and vimto squash today 🔥🔥🔥

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

had nutella on toast for breakfast, loads of snacks, and then a maccies for dinner :/ i feel so MASSIVE

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

i fear i’ve gained like 3 bmi points and 10kg just from today alone

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

also bc of the amount of loose skin i have i might be getting a tummy tuck, arm skin removal and legs too :3 my mums gonna pay for it lolol but it’s not 100% yet i’m still on the fence about it

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

and like i tried to eat more like a few weeks ago so the plateau would go away but NO

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

ok so i’m maintaining between bmi 17.6-17.9 and it’s making me wanna k!ll myself bc I NEED TO LOSE MORE BUT JUST BEEN PLATEAUING

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

can’t wait until i’m bmi 16 😝😝 my dream bmi is 14-15 though

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

i’m bmi 17.7🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

[𝓉𝒾𝓁𝓁𝓎🌷 @pinkcloudinq]

maintaining bmi 17.9/18.0😝