I often fantasize about apologizing profusely for everything I've done in my life to whomever might listen and let me accept punishment. It's a complicated feeling. Guilt and shame seem to be the driving factors for many things I feel as if I want.
i want to cry and be held like a small child while someone rubs my back and cradles me like i’m precious and tells me i am safe and i’ll be okay and it was just a bad dream this is all a bad dream none of its real