addy 🥀

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

I’ve been in a constant state of anxiety since last week over this and I guess it’s a good thing that right now I have a therapist and psychiatrist sooo we’ll see how this works out and that I don’t spontaneously decide to quit a job I need 😅

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

When your job decides that they want to merge all the records department into one so (that everyone was against doing instead of fixing the ops issue) that means the person who trained you is no longer gonna be working with you and you got booted from your chat 🥲

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

That kinda hurt my feelings a little bit because I’ve been here for 5 years and I do not like change. I’m not looking forward to the new change and being in a bigger team when I’m used to only 5 people and now have about 20-25 people 🫠

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

I bought my niece some tiaras so she has me wearing one to match her and I feel a little like Kevin now especially wearing my AFTG shirt right now 🙂

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

Since then, I’ve realized that my sexuality is aro-ace lesbian (possibly demi), I prefer using she/they pronouns, and also broke up with my gf (long story 🙂).
My family has been quite supportive despite where we live and growing up as Christians, so I’m grateful.

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

My coming out story is quite bland and uninteresting:
I came out to my sisters when I was 16; and when I was 22 they helped me to come out to my parents over dinner where they told me they still loved and accepted me for who I am. 💞

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

It’s also the fact they won’t consider increasing my pay for doing MORE work like what. Give me more money if you are making me do the job of 5 other clerks at least.

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

Not my manager calling me on my day OFF for a meeting to tell me that the company decided to merge all the clerks together so she’s no longer my manager and I’ll be under someone I don’t like because of how she micromanages her clerks. I about ended the call right then.

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

I had a meltdown at that and stayed muted for the whole 20 minute phone call and now I’m just pissed because my department fought against this for a year and now I’m debating if I want to quit my job lmao.

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

With my hair being dark brown (with reddish highlights) I don’t know if I’m giving Neil or Andrew right now but I feel quite comfortable wearing armbands 🙂

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

But yeah the computer screen definitely broke somehow… probably user error but I honestly don’t know what the fuck I did as I have a screen protector and blue light screen on it much good that it did 🫠

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

My laptop feels the same way I do right now, but I can’t just decide to die and be dramatic on a whim like it did so rude. I’m betting it’s going to be dead before I get my replacements which means no working laptop until then and my anxiety is definitely there 🙂

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

It’s been a bit since I last cosplayed, but it’s something I would possibly like to do in the future once again as I loved being able to do it and create fun pictures and videos 💞

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

My niece was wanting to dress up today and we didn’t have any cute clippies for her hair. But I did have some stuff from when I cosplayed so I let her pick some stuff out.
She picked out my butterfly pin and crown (obvi not going to show my niece online.)

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

I love late night panic attacks 💞
On another note I finally finished my fic that I began two years ago and feel free and ready to disappear for a few months probably but that’s also probably my meds and anxiety talking rn 🙂

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

I’ve been keeping a small list of things I want whenever I do have motivation again because it’s been almost a month since I began my meds and almost 3 since I last did anything I actually enjoyed/any motivation and have been in a constant numbness which is frustrating.

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

I just want my meds to start working because being apathetic and having zero interest in anything is horrible because I would love to read, write, bake and watch shows. But I can’t bring myself to do anything I actually enjoy 🫠

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

@AngstNoComfort i’m so happy for you, renée! i know how tough this has been for you and how hard you’ve worked, hope that everything goes smoothly with the new job 🖤

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

@AngstNoComfort that is amazing! i hope that you are proud of yourself of such an amazing accomplishment 🖤

[addy 🥀 @pipedreamaddy]

@TheMaeruh I’m happy that you saw them! I’ve been a bit off and on already so haven’t been on my ao3 to check today or to read some more and I fell asleep pretty quick last night.