Im sorry for everyone who is beautiful & sincere & doesnt fit the mould (i know how that feels, relative to “yoga” oh my god how embarassing), but there is a common character of amateur buddhist using extreme complicated techniques and philosophies to not feel things. Always male
@teleosistem I have an online group of friends. We know each other because we all live in the same country and we come from 4ch#n.
Now i enter the group chat and i feel hate for them. I get very triggered by a bad way of relating to them. Some toxicity.
@teleosistem I was just think of how i related to a childhood friend with deference because he was more autist/nerd than me, and i felt very sorry for that feeling.
I don't know guys. I am not really hopeful on getting my social needs met. There's things i could seek outside that would make me be near people but i feel so defective to enjoy these things or just to actually decide on doing them.
Maybe i just need to act without this regard.
A dear childhood friend of mine recently died and the last thing i said to him was "did they teach you how to have sex on the street?".
I don't know. It's not special but it's meaningless as his death.
@nickcammarata@hormeze I want to do "32 body parts meditation" where you visualize all the different parts of the body, specially the disgusting ones.
I want to see if it helps me to stop wasting my time looking at women in Instagram and i am also concerned about the other side effects.