A hard truth I learned as an autistic person is that it isn’t always possible to ensure that others understand you/your intentions. You can explain yourself 100 different ways and still be misunderstood. Please know that your character is not determined by others’ misperceptions.
"I exist. I get to exist. I get to take up space & oxygen. I get to have opinions & feelings & preferences. I deserve safety & support. And I do not have to apologize for any of it."
Repeat. Again. And again.
This is where trauma recovery starts.
It's simple. But not easy.
Someone: do you want to do [some really boring/monotonous chore]?
Autistic me: no, thank you.
Someone: oh, so you’re refusing to help out?!
Autistic me: no, you asked me if I *want* to do the task and I don’t *want* to, but I’ll do it if you’d like me to - I’m happy to help.
If you have ADHD and you have always relied on anxiety to get things done....
You're on the road to ADHD burnout.
ADHD burnout means one day anxiety will stop working for you. as a motivational tool. You need to find healthy coping strategies before that happens.
Shaming ourselves for how long trauma recovery is taking won't speed the process up. It's taking the time it takes for a reason.
The damage that was done to your nervous system takes EXACTLY the time & care it takes to heal. No more; no less.
Easy does it. Just focus on today.
ADHD noob: I'll remember that. *promptly forgets*
ADHD novice: I don't think I'm going to remember that. *writes it down... and then forgets where they wrote it*
ADHD pro: I'm never going to remember that. That was a nice thought while it lasted. *lets it drift into the ether*
Some less talked about stims:
- Playing a song (or a portion of a song) on repeat
- Twirling hair
- Rubbing scalp
- Jiggling legs
- Stroking pets
- Chewing gum
- Spinning in chairs
- Walking in circles
- Pacing
- Tapping surfaces
- Clicking pens
- Pressing/chewing/biting lips
Robert Habeck soll in das goldene Buch der Stadt Wernigerode eingetragen werden. Ein CDU-Politiker kann es "nicht mit dem Gewissen vereinbaren" mit Habeck in einem Raum zu sein. Die FDP will fernbleiben. Eine Lokalpolitikerin vergleicht Habeck mit Hitler.
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Nobody would feel safe w/ someone who shames, blames, & punishes them every day-- which is why we gotta tap the brakes on shaming, blaming, & punishing ourselves in trauma recovery.
Doesn't matter how "safe" we are out in the world, if we're not safe in our own head & heart.
One reason why autistic people are often misunderstood no matter how clear, precise and straightforward we are is that neurotypical people tend to focus more on how a person’s body language reads (according to their neurotype’s customs) than a person’s literal wording.
ADHD is thinking about all the things you have to do, getting stressed about all the things, worrying about the consequences of not doing the things, but still feeling stuck and unable to do any of the things.
Part of being Autistic and ADHD, for me, is associating many people with strong emotions. For example, if someone does something that hurts me, I’ll associate them with hurt for years to come. No matter what they do, I’ll feel hurt when I hear their name or are in their presence.