i remember a long time ago, i was on a walk...
and i saw a fat person.
"what a fatass"
an automatic thought just in my mind.
from somewhere deep within me...
i was never that fat, but there were periods when i was chubby.
and i realize, i'm not judging him, i'm judging the person i used to be.
i'm afraid to become 'fat' again.
that's why i've been working out consistently for years.
you're judging everyone too.
and ironically that's why you care what other people think of you.
because if you walked onto the street and didn't judge anyone out there...
you'd forget they even existed and forget to give a fuck.
even right now you're judging me.
am i worthy of a like?
should you just scroll?
do i deserve a follow?
that's the gap.
you're the judge on a show you never wanted to be on.
- PM
p.s. decided yet?
do i deserve the follow... or not?
up to you. but i'll always be here with daily insights.
good luck g.
you are scared of growth.
you don't actually want to become a new version of yourself.
because that means another version of yourself has to die.
so the inner you fights back.
makes you relapse on porn and spend all day doom scrolling.
wait, how are we going to get rid of him then?
we apply the A-M-P formula.
not kai cenat...
the as much pain formula.
because if i wanted to kill you, how would i do it?
i'd have to put you in pain right?
you need to do the same.
every time you DON'T want to do something...
you should do it the most.
it's what hamza literally preaches.
"do the hard work, especially when you don't feel like it"
put yourself in as much 痛み...
and you'll come out a new person.
- PM
p.s. even reading this was growth.
because there are millions of more stimulating videos out there.
but you stayed to the end. good shit.
that's +1 to your pain vault.
if you want to add more to it, follow up.
you've favorited 100's of these self-improvement posts.
gone back to them maybe once for motivation.
but have you ever used these posts in your life?
no, you just use them to feel superior over the other guys on tiktok watching brainrot.
but you're still frying your dopamine by scrolling anyway.
bit hypocritical icl.
yk, i used to watch probably 10 self-improvement videos a day.
hamza especially.
but i never took action on them.
just watched them to feel productive.
it was like "self-improvement porn"
and i was just sitting there in my head "mentally masturbating" to it.
so ask yourself,
are you learning something that you'll apply in your own life...
or are you just mentally masturbating?
- PM
p.s. you need to take action on information.
but most information isn't detailed enough to take action on.
which is why i made this page. so i can give real actionable steps for people like the old me.
if you want in, follow up.
but, it's your choice g.
seeing de'aaron fox selling the spurs...
some funny anime slander using viggle ai....
and then you see it.
a tate video.
just him standing there.
and a motivational quote put on top by another account trying to farm likes to put an affiliate link in bio.
motivation goes up in your body more than the spurs did against the knicks...
but just like the spurs, you blow it all.
because as soon as you sit to work.
wait, where did the lead go?
where is the motivation?
and you realize you found yourself watching nba clutch highlights instead of doing the work.
how the fuck?
when you watched that video you felt like you could make a million dollars and retire your mother overnight...
but now you just feel like scum for not completing your work.
which is exactly what the account wanted you to feel in the first place...
because now you're back to watching (and liking) all his videos.
and it makes you feel so good in your head that you keep going.
you can see the vision now.
the cars, the watches, the supermodels on your yacht...
it's painful how close it is in your mind but how far away it is in reality.
so like a drug you go back to it AGAIN and AGAIN.
and it's sad cuz...
if you can't motivate yourself, how do you ever expect to make those dreams reality?
- PM
p.s. this isn't another tate motivational account.
this is actual lessons that make genuine change in your life.
change that isn't an empty 10 seconds of motivation.
if you want more, follow up.
your choice.
3:33 am.
i'm lying in bed.
"rest your muscles"
is what my mind is trying to tell me so i stay in bed.
the warmth of the sheets contrasts the cold, dark basement air.
my body doesn't want to move.
my eyes are slowly shutting to go back to sleep.
but i still throw the blanket off and get up anyway.
i think of this shit like a war.
and how do you win a war?
you win the small little skirmishes.
you know, the ones in your mind.
walking past the kfc and seeing a meal deal and deciding to give in... battle lost.
sitting down to work and getting an urge to scroll and giving in... battle lost.
lying in your warm bed with your mind fighting to keep you in it and still jumping out of bed... battle won.
until next time.
- PM
p.s. you know where this war is headed.
if you stay where you are right now... you can only keep losing the battle.
follow up. i'll show you how to win the war.
"fuck this teacher bro"
we're all on our phones.
the teacher is teaching to an audience of mentally drained students that could not care less...
she asks us to get off our phones.
and we do... until she looks away.
at some point she just gave up. no more yelling... no more teaching, she just sat there.
the one kid in the class who actually cares about his grades is asking if the work is posted.
she just says "yeah" and posts an assignment that was the most chatgpted work ever.
the next day she was sick.
and the day after, she was gone.
monday. a new teacher walks in.
first thing he did was tell me to take out my airpods.
and this time when he speaks. we listen.
some kid pulls out his phone.
the teacher didn't take it though.
he just stared at him.
didn't continue his lesson until the phone was gone.
"bro this the worst teacher we ever had"
and all of a sudden we all remember our old teacher.
she let us go on our phones... she was so kind.
we missed her...
but wait, what did she even teach us?
and when the new teacher asked what we'd learnt not one person could answer him.
because we never learned shit.
we thought we were making progress. we weren't.
and by the time we realized it was too late because our grades were already in hell.
sound familiar?
because you do the same thing.
disguising comfort as progress.
pretending that you're "expanding your comfort zone"
but the actions you take are not outside of your comfort zone, if they were, you wouldn't be taking them.
and you know this.
so sit with that.
think of an action that would be outside your comfort zone.
working on something without seeing the results...
talking to the girl you've been looking at but are too afraid to approach...
now do it.
NOTICE WHAT YOUR BRAIN IS SAYING.
"why tf should i listen to you?"
"that's retarded and it won't even do that much for me bro"
"we can always do it later"
i won't tell you to ignore these and step out anyway....
i know you won't.
but sit with those excuses.
are they the truth or are they your brain trying to defend the comfort you're in?
you don't need me to answer that for you.
- PM
p.s. we know your current teacher isn't teaching you shit.
you need a new one.
and that's the whole point of this page...
follow up.
5:44 am.
smell of cologne still lingers on my body from last night.
my muscles are a bit sore, i just came back from a workout.
leg day. annoying. but necessary.
an ambient track is playing through my ears, the only sound i hear this early.
funnily enough, i actually snoozed my alarm this morning.
out of character for me.
though with how little sleep i'm getting these days it was bound to happen at some point.
but i know for a fact i will not snooze my alarm again for quite some time (months).
why?
because it's who i am.
you could give me 15 minutes of sleep and i'd still wake up when that alarm rings tomorrow.
because there's no way i'm falling off two days in a row.
i know where that road leads me...
but i don't have to force it anymore, yk?
it's just... normal now.
wake up, regardless of how i slept.
go on a 40 min walk (ifykyk)
work on my business.
hit a workout.
repeat.
it's become fun now.
the "fun" like scrolling, going out, partying...
it doesn't interest me.
it's only work that does now.
bit psychotic, i know, i've been told by multiple people that i'm a bit fucked in the head.
but i take it as a compliment because truthfully i am.
ofc i'm not actually mental.
even tho i've actually looked through the traits of a psychopath and they do fit me quite well.
realizing now that it's actually ideal to be psycho because most guys are retarded, which is even worse...
thinking scrolling tiktok and watching romance anime is all life is.
sad. we're infinite. we can do anything.
you just limited your own self for no reason.
i have infinite discipline and can do whatever the fuck i want.
because i know i can, i never limited myself.
where are you limits at bro?
do you think you can be the guy who retires your mother?
not just a simple "yes" in your head.
i'm being serious. do you? or do you not?
sit in that for a while. your mind will reveal the answer.
but anyway, i'm off to go work on my product now.
talk to you next time g.
- PM
p.s. i know you're not like the rest if you made it this far into the post.
you don't have dreams, you have goals that haven't yet manifested into the physical plane.
so i'm going to help you with that by constantly bringing you reminders like this to keep going on the grind, to never give up.
follow up. or don't. stay in the same spot for another 6 months, it's not up to me.
bleu de chanel on my inner elbow. a strong sweet scent.
am i going to meet someone? no.
i’m in the sort of “lonely” grind phase that everyone loves to talk about.
late nights. early morning. quiet life. lonely life.
but weirdly it’s what i’ve always wanted.
no one is bothering me.
no one is on my mind.
just me and claude working on business.
sure, one day i’ll come back to having fun.
not normal fun.
real, human fun.
going to cyberpunk cities in unknown asian cities and actually enjoying it, knowing this is only possible because of me…
talking to a girl and knowing exactly what words to say and what to do because i’ve spent so long in the sales/marketing space…
spending time with my mom and knowing she isn’t worried about how money is scarce anymore…
but not now.
right now i need to be locked in.
focused/集中している.
only then will i one day look back on these days and be proud of myself.
because it’s not a one week game i’m playing.
it’s a life long game i’m playing.
this lifestyle could never leave me.
it’s grind mode or sleep mode only.
no in between.
because i know one day…
this will all pay off.
- PM
p.s. you know you need to stay focused too.
without doubt. without distraction. and with focus.
which is why every day i’ll be dropping posts which are reminders to you.
reminders to become the version of yourself you know you need to be.
don’t hesitate. follow up.