polly

im really trying to outsmart this disorder

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tbh almost enough reason to relapse real quick to be back to very uw by july

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haven’t seen my family in a year and gained to borderline healthy weight from uw can’t wait for everyone commenting on that (they always do)

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i changed it quite a bit but still really liked, especially the lava moment

would spare 50 kcal to add some melted chocolate to the batter for more intense chocolate moment

[del ♡ 祺祺 (semi-recov) @delicafrost]

hi edtwt !!! recipe !!
fluffy, sweet chocolate cake that doesn’t taste like ana

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got out of a madman sewing coma i don’t know what year it is and when was the last time i saw water highly recommend

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i’m sick again less than a month after that covid that almost killed me genuinely why the fuck

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@eri_berry00 well THIS is hilarious

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being a responsible tax paying adult is very boring i don’t get to act upon disorder thoughts in fear of being deported

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i got back to my pre broken leg weight and body composition what am i. supposed to do now

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i cannot do that mousetrap “i like being hungry let’s be hungry let’s be very underweight that’s so fun” i’ve been there BUT I WANT TO

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@heartywav i agree but also “recover” only physically

god knows i’m healthy weight but my head is as fucked as ever (ok maybe better than crazy years but this disorder 1) makes no sense 2) is insanely intricate in its ways. you can
know well but i honestly never saw it completely shut up)

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@heartywav yeah same but then there’s an annoying 15 yo and here we go again

every skinny mean girl WILL be humbled by inevitable weight gain these behaviors were never sustainable

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@heartywav @imaslimeyou biggest hm did you just call me FAT (sorry)

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@Lylylimia brains starved big times omfg

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i booked my vacation anorexia starts right now (i won’t be able to afford food)

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@Lylylimia hungry angry and a little dumb classics

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@Lylylimia i feel like unless you experience an actual binge it can be genuinely difficult to see the difference. quite fucking unique thing to compare to anything else especially in primarily young people who tend to misuse the word

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@De4dGrrrl you should absolutely follow what you want. also europe lowkey sucks ass, r*asia will start bombing everyone any moment, and antisemitism is getting worse

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but now it works for arms and back. thighs are still a painful moment

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i think recovery truly got to me because now i look at thinspo and don’t think “omg i must be the same” i think “wow girl menopause will be so hard on you with this muscle %”