i feel really weird rn. my life is getting better academically but not emotionally. i barely interact with my only bsf since he tried to touch me inappropriately, my mom just moved to the capital without me, and now the guy i thought he loved me left me. what a wonderful life!
but i dont really wanna be loved at the same time cause i cant change my mind that everyone who likes me only wants me sexually. i start feeling disgusted everytime i think about sex and shit like that.