you unfortunately need to realize that your life is not a movie and that you genuinely just a fucked up person and there is no character arc and plot development coming your way. swallow the shoe and stop chewing on it like a dog
I wish i could go up to people and say hey, put down the red dye, not everyone can pull it off. you tried, you failed. now u just a mess that clashing with everything
i guess for his final act of love he became everything he despised and became so unrecognizable that i’m left mourning a guy i lost 1 year ago instead of a guy i just lost