" . . damn , I thought my deflecting
paid off , " she replied ; that stupid
grin crawling back onto her face
as she set her gaze upon the doll .
" I did talk . You talked too , so . . .
I'd say we're pretty even , eh ? "
" . . success or not , at least you ๐ต๐ณ๐บ . "
. . .
Nodding at the others appreciation , averting her gaze as she lets a sigh escape her lips .
" . . don't mention it . "
" Sure , it @*#$@) me the #*(@ off sometimes , but it's . . I just wish I could be like you sometimes when it came to @($* , I guess . "
She wanted to throw up .
. . feeling such sweet words
escaping her mouth felt
awful on the tongue .
" . . don't be stupid , " she responds , setting her gaze upon the ceiling .
" Seriously , you've probably prevented more abstractions than you take credit for . We have absolutely nothing going for us here , and you always manage to . . be you . "
( + )
โ โ she looks at her, eye wide,
blinking before she looks away.
arms wrapped around herself.
of all the things she expected her
to say, that.. wasn't one of them.
โ โ i wouldn't say that.. โ
. . deep down , Jax knew she wasn't . Fists balling on her lap , she meets the others gaze with dilated pupils .
" . . this place is lucky to have you , you know that ? "
" . . . "
Falling silent , closing her eyes as she lets out a soft sigh . She wanted to shove the other away , she wanted to just . . yell , tell her that she was wrong .
. . .
( + )
" . . ๐ฑ๐ด๐ฉ , yeah , me being on
the verge of tears confiding
my sorrows in ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ shows ๐จ๐ค
much strength , " she responds
sarcastically , her voice cracking
before clears her throat ; shaking
her head .
( + )
โ hey, i never said you were. โ
holding her hands up;
โ โ a placating gesture.
โ i'd tell you that isn't healthy to
keep all that bottled up but i'm sure
you're well aware. if anything, i think
it shows strength.. to be able to talk
about this. it doesn't make you weak. โ
" .. of course I feel bad , I'm
not heartless , " she growls ;
shooting the other a glare .
" .. I just . I can't .. "
Frown weakening , placing
her face into her hands .
" . . I feel less . . weak , when
I do that #%*@ . Less helpless .
. . it distracts me from 'life' . "
she's fidgeting with her hands.
โ โ you know.. i wasn't really
sure if you felt bad about that
sort of thing.
we all make mistakes. for what it's
worth, i don't think you're as bad
โ โ as you think you are. โ
Averting her gaze ; folding her
arms as she hums in thought in
regards to the question the
ragdoll had asked her .
' ๐๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฏ๐บ ๐ต๐ข๐ญ๐ฆ๐ฏ๐ต๐ด ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถโ๐ท๐ฆ ๐ข๐ญ๐ธ๐ข๐บ๐ด ๐ธ๐ข๐ฏ๐ต๐ฆ๐ฅ ๐ต๐ฐ ๐ต๐ณ๐บ ? '
" . . kind of hard to try things when I'm good at everything ~ ! "
. . the remark itself was supposed
to be an insult , as she had meant
for the other to believe that the
drawing was an accurate
representation of her . . .
Smile faltering for a moment , she
shakes her head as she responds
with a " . . yeah , no problem . "
( + )
<<
โ Wh-What about you? Now that we have more control in the circus, are there any talents youโve always wanted to try? โ
Ragatha smiles at her through the mirror, trying to make conversation.
" . . like I said , nothing . "
She lifts her head , her gaze
still averted , frown weakening .
" Just . . reminiscing on how
much of a piece of *@($ I am . "
" . . . "
Setting the tub of ice cream
to her side , although it was
practically melted at this point ;
bringing her legs up and
hugging them , whilst burying
her face in her knees .
( + )
โ โ she just raises a brow.
โ โ โ because you let me in your
room and haven't kicked me out
yet? that doesn't sound like a thing
someone who hated me would do. โ
' ๐๐ฐ ๐ธ๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ฆ๐ณ ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ ๐ญ๐ช๐ฌ๐ฆ ๐ช๐ต ๐ฐ๐ณ
๐ฏ๐ฐ๐ต , ๐ ๐ฅ๐ฐ ๐ค๐ข๐ณ๐ฆ ๐ข๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐บ๐ฐ๐ถ . '
Scoffing .
" . . yeah right . . "
At that last remark , she meets the others gaze again ; that stupid ass grin marking her face again .
" How could you be so sure , hm ~ ? "
she's wandering over to sit
down on the bed next to her.
โ โ because. you're still one of
us. so whether you like it or not,
โ โ i do care about you. โ
โ she pauses before adding;
โ โ and i don't think you ๐ข๐ค๐ต๐ถ๐ข๐ญ๐ญ๐บ
hate us. you're just saying that. โ