🦋🏳️‍⚧️

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

( #TADCRP | #MVRP )

[ᅟᅟgibson girl, @sainticide]

you don't think you deserve to be saved.

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

" . . damn , I thought my deflecting
paid off , " she replied ; that stupid
grin crawling back onto her face
as she set her gaze upon the doll .

" I did talk . You talked too , so . . .
I'd say we're pretty even , eh ? "

[‎ ‎‎‎ ‎ 𐙚‎‎ ‎ ℛ𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘢. @L0VLYRAGD0LLY]

⠀⠀she shrugs, looking at the floor.

⠀❝ ... anyways, we were meant to
be talking about you. not 𝘮𝘦. ❞

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

" . . success or not , at least you 𝘵𝘳𝘺 . "

. . .

Nodding at the others appreciation , averting her gaze as she lets a sigh escape her lips .

" . . don't mention it . "

[‎ ‎‎‎ ‎ 𐙚‎‎ ‎ ℛ𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘢. @L0VLYRAGD0LLY]

⠀❝ but, that's.. that's nice of you
to say. thank you. i really do
appreciate it. ❞

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

" Sure , it @*#$@) me the #*(@ off sometimes , but it's . . I just wish I could be like you sometimes when it came to @($* , I guess . "

She wanted to throw up .
. . feeling such sweet words
escaping her mouth felt
awful on the tongue .

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

" . . don't be stupid , " she responds , setting her gaze upon the ceiling .

" Seriously , you've probably prevented more abstractions than you take credit for . We have absolutely nothing going for us here , and you always manage to . . be you . "

( + )

[‎ ‎‎‎ ‎ 𐙚‎‎ ‎ ℛ𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘢. @L0VLYRAGD0LLY]

⠀⠀she looks at her, eye wide,
blinking before she looks away.
arms wrapped around herself.

of all the things she expected her
to say, that.. wasn't one of them.

⠀❝ i wouldn't say that.. ❞

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

. . deep down , Jax knew she wasn't . Fists balling on her lap , she meets the others gaze with dilated pupils .

" . . this place is lucky to have you , you know that ? "

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

" . . . "

Falling silent , closing her eyes as she lets out a soft sigh . She wanted to shove the other away , she wanted to just . . yell , tell her that she was wrong .

. . .

( + )

[‎ ‎‎‎ ‎ 𐙚‎‎ ‎ ℛ𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘢. @L0VLYRAGD0LLY]

⠀❝ can't exactly die in here, but..
noted. i don't plan on telling anyone.
⠀⠀promise. ❞

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

" . . if you tell anyone about
this conversation , I'll kill you , "
she mumbles ; wiping her eyes .

She hated being vulnerable like this .

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

" . . 𝘱𝘴𝘩 , yeah , me being on
the verge of tears confiding
my sorrows in 𝘺𝘰𝘶 shows 𝙨𝙤
much strength , " she responds
sarcastically , her voice cracking
before clears her throat ; shaking
her head .

( + )

[‎ ‎‎‎ ‎ 𐙚‎‎ ‎ ℛ𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘢. @L0VLYRAGD0LLY]

❝ hey, i never said you were. ❞

holding her hands up;
⠀⠀a placating gesture.

❝ i'd tell you that isn't healthy to
keep all that bottled up but i'm sure
you're well aware. if anything, i think
it shows strength.. to be able to talk
about this. it doesn't make you weak. ❞

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

" .. of course I feel bad , I'm
not heartless , " she growls ;
shooting the other a glare .

" .. I just . I can't .. "

Frown weakening , placing
her face into her hands .

" . . I feel less . . weak , when
I do that #%*@ . Less helpless .
. . it distracts me from 'life' . "

[‎ ‎‎‎ ‎ 𐙚‎‎ ‎ ℛ𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘢. @L0VLYRAGD0LLY]

she's fidgeting with her hands.

⠀❝ you know.. i wasn't really
sure if you felt bad about that
sort of thing.

we all make mistakes. for what it's
worth, i don't think you're as bad
⠀⠀as you think you are. ❞

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

Averting her gaze ; folding her
arms as she hums in thought in
regards to the question the
ragdoll had asked her .

' 𝘈𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘺 𝘵𝘢𝘭𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶’𝘷𝘦 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘳𝘺 ? '

" . . kind of hard to try things when I'm good at everything ~ ! "

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

. . the remark itself was supposed
to be an insult , as she had meant
for the other to believe that the
drawing was an accurate
representation of her . . .

Smile faltering for a moment , she
shakes her head as she responds
with a " . . yeah , no problem . "

( + )

[𝓡ᴀɢᴀᴛʜᴀ. 🪡 @cheerfulragdoll]

<<

❝ Wh-What about you? Now that we have more control in the circus, are there any talents you’ve always wanted to try? ❞

Ragatha smiles at her through the mirror, trying to make conversation.

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

" . . like I said , nothing . "

She lifts her head , her gaze
still averted , frown weakening .

" Just . . reminiscing on how
much of a piece of *@($ I am . "

[‎ ‎‎‎ ‎ 𐙚‎‎ ‎ ℛ𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘢. @L0VLYRAGD0LLY]

⠀⠀she smiles sympathetically.

⠀⠀⠀❝ okay.. good. so, what's
going on then? ❞

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

" . . fine , " she replies , " but only
because I know you won't stop
being a pest about it otherwise . "

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

" . . . "

Setting the tub of ice cream
to her side , although it was
practically melted at this point ;
bringing her legs up and
hugging them , whilst burying
her face in her knees .

( + )

[‎ ‎‎‎ ‎ 𐙚‎‎ ‎ ℛ𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘢. @L0VLYRAGD0LLY]

⠀⠀❝ exactly. ❞

her expression softens a little.

⠀⠀❝ listen, it's just us. you
don't need to pretend. ❞

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

all good , man .

all good .

[𝙆𝙖𝙪𝙛𝙢𝙤 — .ᐟ @UnfunnyJ0kes]

my bad
I got lost in the sauce

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

Smile faltering , she almost
immediately averts her gaze .

" . . #@%^ . " 💧

[‎ ‎‎‎ ‎ 𐙚‎‎ ‎ ℛ𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘢. @L0VLYRAGD0LLY]

⠀⠀she just raises a brow.

⠀⠀❝ because you let me in your
room and haven't kicked me out
yet? that doesn't sound like a thing
someone who hated me would do. ❞

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

[ ᴍᴀʏ ʙᴇ ꜱᴇʟᴇᴄᴛɪᴠᴇ . . . ]

[𝙆𝙖𝙪𝙛𝙢𝙤 — .ᐟ @UnfunnyJ0kes]

ouuuu sshiiiiit

[🦋🏳️‍⚧️ @pranksterbunn]

' 𝘚𝘰 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘪𝘵 𝘰𝘳
𝘯𝘰𝘵 , 𝘐 𝘥𝘰 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 . '

Scoffing .

" . . yeah right . . "

At that last remark , she meets the others gaze again ; that stupid ass grin marking her face again .

" How could you be so sure , hm ~ ? "

[‎ ‎‎‎ ‎ 𐙚‎‎ ‎ ℛ𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘢. @L0VLYRAGD0LLY]

she's wandering over to sit
down on the bed next to her.

⠀❝ because. you're still one of
us. so whether you like it or not,
⠀⠀i do care about you. ❞

⠀she pauses before adding;

⠀❝ and i don't think you 𝘢𝘤𝘵𝘶𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺
hate us. you're just saying that. ❞