rue ୨ৎ

vent acc of a mentally ill 22y/o. ed, bpd, bipolar 1. 18+!!,,, follow my backup: @rueslovelylife ❀ priv: @rueexclusive ˎˊ˗

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

⋆ ˚｡ ⋆୨ edtwt, new intro ୧⋆ ˚｡ ⋆

hiii i’m rue!! ˙ᵕ˙
❀ she/her, 21, an-b/p
✿ arab & muslim, pro recovery
here to vent, not encouraging anyone

— dnf: non edtwt, 17-, pro ed, zionists, racists, weirdos

❁ strawpage: https://t.co/Ywo9sOg1F4

♡︎ or ↻ to be moots!

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

i’m seriously so fat now bro i need to kms and to lose all my body weight i hate myself i’m literally the opposite of anorexic now kms

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

lol if it worked i would’ve been d34d for 5 years today. crazy shit fr ugh i hate that i’m depressed again cuz i’m trying to think of positive shit but i’m failing like yeah i kinda wish it worked idk

[Ramin Nasibov @RaminNasibov]

How I’ve been watching shows lately:

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

ok i hate both but summer is NOT any worse than winter 😭😭😭 both suck ass here esp if it’s not a coastal city (& when it’s coastal u also deal w humidity so u never win ig)

[alaz @alz4cn]

dni if you live in the middle east and prefer summer over winter

[𓇢𓆸 @solaranvs]

suicide

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

mine is frosted cake

[َ @mclIark]

testing if my will to live is real or cake

[key ✮ @cultarr]

if youre awkward as an adult they kill you

[mars🪷🪽 @whxre4coldbrew]

I actually cannot stand the fact that this is inside of me omg I need it GONE🙁

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

@euthanisedangel like 21 and less but it depends on fat distribution and bf% and muscle n body composition n stuff so it’s not a rule

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

@weep1ngmelody u have the best build ever n u look skinnier than bmi 20 n side note I LOVE THE FIRST TOP SM !!

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

@journaldevivi every time i see one of these old people on here my heart skips a few beats omg i Don’t wanna end up like that it’s my biggest fear

[☥ @rosiesrib]

self harming by staying fat

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

it sucks the older i get apparently the UGLIER (cuz fatter) i get…
i can’t stay like this i HAVE to lose 5kg minimum to start looking barely acceptable

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

and this just so coincidentally happens to be my 111th day free of sh,, not that i strictly try not to sh but i just don’t do it as much anymore
what on odd thing tho!!

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

ugh i so badly wanna cut myself n idek why nothing in particular happened n it’s been so long since i cut myself irdk why i feel this way. maybe bcz of my scars they’re not as out there as they used to be and it’s been triggering me they’re essential they’re important to me

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

ugh i so badly wanna cut myself n idek why nothing in particular happened n it’s been so long since i cut myself irdk why i feel this way. maybe bcz of my scars they’re not as out there as they used to be and it’s been triggering me they’re essential they’re important to me

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

almost like that’s the point???

[sono✖️🌗 @sosonosonosono]

how do people self-harm that shit hurts as hell 😭😭😭

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

this is so sweet :(((

[🐟 ノ bana @funnifetti]

well this is embarrassing

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

just saw “16 (2010)” in someone’s bio. WDYM ???????
day ruined 👵🏻

[່͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ ͏ @oorangeugladd]

i have to fantasize about killing myself regularly or else i will kill myself

[rue ୨ৎ @prettystarss22]

what do u guys do on summer vacation if u dont travel anywhere? im sick of taking a summer semester every summer so i dont go insane 😭
having nth ahead of me makes me fall back into bulimia traps n makes my depression worse
(cant get a job either, not qualified in anything yet)