prob delete later but
anyone else have this cycle of being paranoid you're not actually liked but you don't reach out to anyone cause you have nothing to say and don't want to say random stuff in fear they're annoyed so you just don't say anything and be left forgotten
Splitting feels like being on fire and someone is sat there with an opioid but they wonβt give it to you because they donβt believe youβre actually hurting that much. yea you do extreme shit to make them understand your pain. neglected child rationale
sometimes i have these rare moments where i feel really lucky to be alive,
even with little to no self love and hate for everything wrong with me i still want to reach out to the sky and cherish everything beautiful and precious